I gave it all I had. For six months I tried. I really wanted to feel the cosmic grip of security and faith. But again the church has failed me.
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Love Hate Love
Alice In Chains
I tried to love you I thought I could
I tried to own you I thought I would
I want to peel the skin from your face
Before the real you lays to waste
You told me Im the only one
Sweet little angel you should have run
Lying, crying, dying to leave
Innocence creates my hell
Cheating myself...
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Alice In Chains
I tried to love you I thought I could
I tried to own you I thought I would
I want to peel the skin from your face
Before the real you lays to waste
You told me Im the only one
Sweet little angel you should have run
Lying, crying, dying to leave
Innocence creates my hell
Cheating myself...
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emily_m:
The show is every Saturday at midnight. I won't be there tonight, but I will be there next weekend and every weekend after with the exception of March 5.
evanx:
I emailed you through your contact button. Did it work? Did you get it?
I am working in a warehouse now. I pack and ship boxes, and I drive a forklift. I don't really know how I ended up here, but I really like it. On a daily basis I am hit with a barrage of questions about my personal life, but I just stay quiet. Everyone is mostly interested in my cuts, my scars, my tattoos. They are...
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mercie:
Favorite of all emo boys ever.... I miss you. Call me drunk again, I miss it. Don't forget who loves you.
♥
Edited to add: I left you your first testimonial. How cherry.
[Edited on Jan 22, 2005 5:45AM]
♥
Edited to add: I left you your first testimonial. How cherry.
[Edited on Jan 22, 2005 5:45AM]
suicidesmitty:
hm. what happened to that project you were working on? and what is all of this awfulness that you have been through?
I just want everything to be in it's right place. It's been so long.
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thecowboy:
i remember you, dude. howzit been lately?
arachnequarius:
wishing the same for you.
My abstract thoughts used to send me adrift and I would forget days. But now I remember 'everything' as abstract becomes reality... Every millisecond of each day is stored in my head--not like a photograph--like video. More like the crispness of film. And the soundtrack to this film is a buzz. An ever-present buzz. The same sort of buzz that a rabid dog must hear......
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zephyra:
I'll be at at slumber party in Frisco tonight, and then Austin next weekend. I guess I'll get in touch sometime after that. I hope all is well with you.
mercie:
You're an asshole sometimes. But I still adore you.
I was in a meeting Friday. The lights were dim and there was a projection on a screen. The projection displayed words that spoke of me. The words explained how I was going to become a product, and how that product would be marketed. About halfway through the gathering, the room collapsed upon me, and I imagined the shrinking space as a coffin with no...
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mercie:
i know you're not around really, but anyway...
zephyra:
it is not your phone, for you did not come to the party. 
Kris and I spent Saturday night at a state park campground to escape our similar frenzied worlds. I woke up Sunday morning, tangled around her in my tent. Our skin was clinging together because of the heat and humidity. She was deep in sleep when I gently pulled myself from her. I watched her slumber. I watched her breathe. Her breaths were large, heavy, and...
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the_baron:
Hey thought I'd come by and say hi! 
distra:
Your profile pic scares the shit outta me.
Sounds like a nice trip.....
I feel ya on the ownership bit. Feels good and bad all at once. I think that is love for ya.
Sounds like a nice trip.....
I feel ya on the ownership bit. Feels good and bad all at once. I think that is love for ya.
My medication has numbed me for so long that I can only remember a chain of very dull days until recently. Last week I completely stopped taking my medicine. I now feel a constant electrical surge... an electrical surge that has exploded my circuit box.
My wiring is frayed. I feel exposed.
Is this freedom?
My wiring is frayed. I feel exposed.
Is this freedom?
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pulloffmywings:
i love you and hate you for posting that picture.
mari__:
I have read Beasts, actually. My God in Her heaven, it was effing phenomenal. Oates is a literary goddess.
Anyway, have a nice week!
Anyway, have a nice week!
I met a girl named Kris last night. Platform shoes. Jarring makeup. Corset. But I see past this external projection. I see vulnerability. I see heartbreak. I see a mind that is an instrument of great design in its 'simplicity' sort of like a mousetrap... a little piece of instant gratification linked to a neck-breaking spring.
She is the space that I need right now,...
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toothpickmoe:
I'm about 6'2"-ish
It's been since July 4th for me...
Always nice to have a friend. Heh
It's been since July 4th for me...
Always nice to have a friend. Heh
mora:
i think that people look to John Stewart, a comedian, for political commentary because even though he is hosting a show for comedic entertainment, he is also NOT putting the ridiculous amounts of spin on the news that all the other damn news shows do. Plus, John Stewart is an amazingly smart man, politically, and a lot of young people recognize that.
Also, i think a quote from him a while back about the exact thing was really poignant. When asked what he thought of young people getting their news from him he said that hey dont, because if they didnt already understand current events the show wouldnt be funny.
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Also, i think a quote from him a while back about the exact thing was really poignant. When asked what he thought of young people getting their news from him he said that hey dont, because if they didnt already understand current events the show wouldnt be funny.
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I caught myself hyperventilating today because of the lack of rhythm in my head. My mind used to play harp strings. A sort of gentle brushing of chords occupied my head everyday. Now my mind hears mass confusion. It is the sound of an ensemble of instruments being tuned all at once.
There is an intruder visiting me.
There is an intruder visiting me.
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quinn:
thats the killer profile pic ya have there.
the shining rules!!
the shining rules!!
arsenic:
I'm lazy, so I'll tell you here. Every single vote counts. Especially now when the race is so close.. We have to get Bush out somehow, if the deficit doesn't get better it can only get worse. and with as many countries as Bush plans on bombing, I don't see up getting out of debt anytime soon. Plus, Bush is a moron, do you really want a moron making decisions for you? I dont. Vote Kerry!
EDIT: VOTE OR DIE!
[Edited on Oct 27, 2004 12:22AM]
EDIT: VOTE OR DIE!
[Edited on Oct 27, 2004 12:22AM]
Go within, discover, and hang on...
Take care, hon.