The state of things as they are currently. I have been out of work since january fourth. I am in the process of starting my own pest control business. I am trying to figure out how to get some more operating money. I cannot imagine working for anyone ever again. I am generally drained of life and trapped in myself. I gave everything I had to others. The only reason I am still trying is to succeed for the sake of service to others. If someone asks I can describe vast ambitious plans. Layers dependent upon the success of the previous layer. All of my plans are in the end to serve and give to others on ever greater scales. It is the only thing that gives any legitimacy to my existence.
