Been watching the Ken Burn's Jazz series. So many guys I gotta buy now... dammit! Jazz is too awesome.
I come to a realization that since I've never had faith (even as a child in sunday school I would think, what bullshit!)
I've come to find faith/hope/whatever in the music I listen to. It's the closest to any kind of "rapture" I've ever felt, and the release of the new Tool album has driven the point home.
Only a few bands, a few albums, a few fleeting moments in a chord change, can work their way into both my heart and mind. They make me feel high without any drug, and it's the best kind.
Can't wait for my vacation next month, get to see friends and family and lots of free food!!
I've only ever been able to connect with a few people in Eugene, and over half of them either I've alienated, or they have alienated me. Too lonely around here. It'll be nice to see those that I consider true friends.
I think I need medication or something...
I was doing good for awhile, but right now I'm either depressed or very very aggitated by people.
I had to run into the back room at work today so that I wouldn't scream obsenities at those I considered stupid (which were many). Maybe I should smoke more pot.
I come to a realization that since I've never had faith (even as a child in sunday school I would think, what bullshit!)
I've come to find faith/hope/whatever in the music I listen to. It's the closest to any kind of "rapture" I've ever felt, and the release of the new Tool album has driven the point home.
Only a few bands, a few albums, a few fleeting moments in a chord change, can work their way into both my heart and mind. They make me feel high without any drug, and it's the best kind.
Can't wait for my vacation next month, get to see friends and family and lots of free food!!
I've only ever been able to connect with a few people in Eugene, and over half of them either I've alienated, or they have alienated me. Too lonely around here. It'll be nice to see those that I consider true friends.
I think I need medication or something...
I was doing good for awhile, but right now I'm either depressed or very very aggitated by people.
I had to run into the back room at work today so that I wouldn't scream obsenities at those I considered stupid (which were many). Maybe I should smoke more pot.
divinetrash:
Well in Arkansas (where I was born and raised) there are trees...not just a couple decorative trees BUT a lot of trees. I just need a change of scene and the last scene is more nature. I really crave city life...buildings, man-made parks...that's really all I need. Sorry about your grandfather...nursing homes are the pits but I am kind of used to them since I worked at one. I like Ken Burn's...his stuff is really long though (no matter the topic) you can guarantee at least 5 segments. I guess that's good though.
corabelle:
i had that very same problem when i moved first moved to PDX, well, i still kinda do. why is it so hard to find genuine people like back at home? i went to a therapist for a little while, it seemed to help to be able to talk to someone that wasn't a friend, but cared enough to ask the right questions.