emokidsmileforme

I was feeling down and I started reading some of the other people's notes. It's amazing how much hate people have for each other and disdain The life that I live is pretty dry and it's predictable, but nonetheless I enjoy it. Living in San Antonio for the past 3 years has taught me a lot about life, human interaction, but mainly general life. For instance, I can deal with the emotions of joy and sadness, but I cannot deal with confusion. If anyone knows me well they know that my biggest pet peeve is people that do not call back. I thought about why it makes me upset and it is not because I believe that everyone should drop whatever they are doing and call me back, or that I don't understand that people get busy. Jean Paul Sarte once stated, " then when you pick yourself you pick man." Which I interpret as the way you values and moral structure that shape your daily life others should adopt. The reason why I call people back is not only because it shows consideration, but it also reinforces the fact that I like you and the fact you bring a unique perspective or quality which I deem acceptable and I admire.
Now, not tooting my horn, but that is a deep statement for such a minor issue. This is how I view the world with depth and a deep respect for issues. People have heard me rant, especially about girls and yes I say brutal things about females, but to be fair I have the same disdain for men because they contribute mainly to the qualities that irk me about women. ( i.e. Women are shallow, the reason why women are shallow is because men love the external beauty of a woman so much and that is what they lust after, which gives the women no incentive to develop depth and internal beauty thus making them shallow) Now any girl that I have been involved with from a casual encounter to a deep love has never done me wrong personally. So that's why I laugh when I hear people say well , " Maybe you have not had the right girl in your life."
I tell them that one of my previous girlfriends is one of the most beautiful people that I have ever met and I am blessed to have someone that love and cared about me unconditionally for over a year. I know of other girls that are amazing girlfriends to their boyfriends and I have tremendous respect for those girls. Once again, my perspective on issues minor or major don't lie solely on self perspective, but others. When I hear people speaking badly about someone they may not be talking about me or someone I know immediately, but they are talking about someone nonetheless. Does it make me wrong not to pursue a friendship with this person? I think especially in the past week or so people are deeply confused about the person I am. Some could argue that I am judgmental and we all are.
The reason what separates my judging from others is that I base it on hard evidence and I give that person the benefit of the doubt ( i.e. bitchy because they had a bad day, needed someone to rant too) My superficial judging like the " I hate white girls with blond hair that drink diet coke" is all shits and giggles. It is just interesting that some people that read this note will state," That you are generalizing and not all women are like that etc. etc. etc.) I know this, but while you are paying attention to the details you are missing the general concept. I have made general statements and I have made exceptions albeit they may be weak examples. I just believe that life is short and you should be around people that you like and enjoy it. Don't confuse people. If you don't like someone (romantically like) just tell them don't make them waste their time. By the same token if someone is interested in that person and they ask your opinion just say, " You know he/she liked me, but he really is not my type if you like ( list positive qualities) then it may work out for you." Their is no reason to bad mouth them if they just weren't your type. If they are cheaters different story. All in all if you know your friend is studying at the library for a test tomorrow give them some food and water. If you know someone is looking for a parking spot and you are leaving tell them where you are parked. If your boyfriend/girlfriend had to study on a Saturday night and couldn't go out bring them back food and stay the night with them and make them laugh.
Guys I know their are beautiful women everywhere and it is tempting, but when you are with one girl she is the most beautiful thing in the world. You pay attention to every detail and everything she has on and every imperfection or blemish is suppose to be there. Even if it's a one night stand she is your queen for that night. I may seem complex, but I am a simple guy. if we don't get along it could be my fault, but more than likely you don't take that next step in thinking. Anyone can be friendly, but not everyone can be genuine. Take the next step, if you are making dinner and you seem little M&M's put it on her plate and make a heart. Be creative, innovative and be with people you truly care about and people that truly care about you.