Its easier when no place feels like home...Midtown was right about that for sure!
currently i don't feel like i have a home that is mine. granted i live with my brother and sister-in-law. but i can't call it home, i actually feel like the house guest that has over stayed his welcome. So spent the day at my parents house today..for two reasons: i wanted to see if it felt more like home (but it hasn't sense i left for college some 6 years ago), and i needed some quiet bc i have been really sick the last few days and today was my day off from watching my nephew so i wanted to go somewhere where i know i could sleep...and the basement of my parents house is perfect for that...no light...no noise, just sleep. It was nice. but it made me realize that i don't have anywhere i can call home right now.
Not to mention, recently my brother has been pushing me to "get a real job". I HATE when it comes up. granted i'm not like him, i couldn't get out of school and find a good paying job. i had the chance, and i turned it down to make my own claim to the business world. i wanted to start something for myself. and i don't think he understands that. not to mention if i had a "real job" i would be able to help him out right now and he would be dropping $300 a week to put his kid in daycare. but instead he gets me...i haven't asked him for any money, i just live with him and eat his food. but every other day. its the same...well you need to find a real job, when are you going to get a real job...FUCK THAT! i own my own business and right now i can't do a damn thing bc there is snow on the ground! and i'm sure ppl don't want me to charge them for cutting their lawn when its only snow. anyway, someday i'll make something of my life and i'll show them all! i'm sorry i'm the black sheep...actually i'm not. FUCK THEM ALL i am who i am and i like what i do, and i like the ideas i have. No i'll never have a real job, but i'll be happy with what i do, and to me that is what is important. i just wish ppl would get off my back about it!
currently i don't feel like i have a home that is mine. granted i live with my brother and sister-in-law. but i can't call it home, i actually feel like the house guest that has over stayed his welcome. So spent the day at my parents house today..for two reasons: i wanted to see if it felt more like home (but it hasn't sense i left for college some 6 years ago), and i needed some quiet bc i have been really sick the last few days and today was my day off from watching my nephew so i wanted to go somewhere where i know i could sleep...and the basement of my parents house is perfect for that...no light...no noise, just sleep. It was nice. but it made me realize that i don't have anywhere i can call home right now.
Not to mention, recently my brother has been pushing me to "get a real job". I HATE when it comes up. granted i'm not like him, i couldn't get out of school and find a good paying job. i had the chance, and i turned it down to make my own claim to the business world. i wanted to start something for myself. and i don't think he understands that. not to mention if i had a "real job" i would be able to help him out right now and he would be dropping $300 a week to put his kid in daycare. but instead he gets me...i haven't asked him for any money, i just live with him and eat his food. but every other day. its the same...well you need to find a real job, when are you going to get a real job...FUCK THAT! i own my own business and right now i can't do a damn thing bc there is snow on the ground! and i'm sure ppl don't want me to charge them for cutting their lawn when its only snow. anyway, someday i'll make something of my life and i'll show them all! i'm sorry i'm the black sheep...actually i'm not. FUCK THEM ALL i am who i am and i like what i do, and i like the ideas i have. No i'll never have a real job, but i'll be happy with what i do, and to me that is what is important. i just wish ppl would get off my back about it!
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I kinda know how you feel.