emma35

um...
yeah.



It's cute and cuddly. i've never gotten a stuffed animal from a boy! haha It made my valentines day very special.




goddamnit not only do i have to wake up after having fucked up dreams nearly ever night for some time now....but I also wake up to realize that I have overdrawn my checking account. It's been so long since I've done somethign like this. Goddamnit this pisses me off. I was in the shower thinking....hey...I'm gonna have a good day. Go buy some groceries....get some of my nursing assisting class over......and just overall have a good day. I will still do that, but with the thoughts in the back of my head hovering over me all day....knowing that the second my head hits the pillow it's back to the zombie-ridden apocalypse and I'm stuck in my old house in altus....hidden in my parents bedroom searching for my father's guns, and bidding my time...alone.

I know i'm dreading something...otherwise I wouldn't keep having these kinds of dreams. what? I have no fucking idea. I wish someone could prescribe me a pill so I could just go to sleep and not dream about anything. Just fall asleep into a big black abyss of nothingness.