I hate that I automatically think that if I can feel a certain way, then it should mean that other people should be able to feel that way as well.
I'm starting to think this world is not so strong.
I start to feel sorry about feeling sorry for myself.
I tell myself if I can "hold out a little longer, I'm sure they're on their way".
Then I think... what if they're not? Then what?
My mind pushes that out, dismisses it. There HAS to be someone on their way...
I feel like my story is 1 in a million and no one ever likes those stories... This whole time I've been wishing I was different but I don't think I am...
I'm having to take care of my parents. I hear word of putting my mentor in a nursing home. I'll die before that ever happens.
Am I going to die caring about everyone who doesn't care about me?
I'm starting to think this world is not so strong.
I start to feel sorry about feeling sorry for myself.
I tell myself if I can "hold out a little longer, I'm sure they're on their way".
Then I think... what if they're not? Then what?
My mind pushes that out, dismisses it. There HAS to be someone on their way...
I feel like my story is 1 in a million and no one ever likes those stories... This whole time I've been wishing I was different but I don't think I am...
I'm having to take care of my parents. I hear word of putting my mentor in a nursing home. I'll die before that ever happens.
Am I going to die caring about everyone who doesn't care about me?
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anjanironnie:
You sound like you need someone to vent to. Message me hun. I know all about how you feel. I am the same person always caring about people who don't give a fuck about me. Its very frustrating and takes it toll. Anytime you need to talk about anything please feel free to send me a message I'm always here to listen.
busta545:
I am sure you have plenty of people who care for you but take you for granted. Just know that you are the person you were meant to be. You can not change other people or how they act. I am a big believer in karma and you will be rewarded for being a good person:kiss, you just have to be patient.