emilygee

Thank you so much for that. Perspectives in relationships are vague and unnatural for me to even conceive. But truth be told, what you said will not go in vain, but we broke up last night. I was an idiot cause I was everything you said I probably shouldn't be and more, I invested a lot of emotion energy in a 2 week fling as the rebound guy from a 2 year relationship. I was upset, but mainly I was mad at myself for letting me get like that. A shitload of factors went into it too. I haven't been in a relationship at all in like years, I haven't had sex in like a year and a half and I was just totally like a child in a giant candy store thinking that his mother will buy him everything, but ends up getting lost next to the gumdrops and gobstoppers.

What's even worse is, we had sex in the short period of time and I actually feel very used. There wasn't any sort of hesitance on either of our behalves, it just happened. And that was the end of that. I think I was more hurt by that than anything else.

I'll collect myself eventually, I'm old enough to not make this weird or anything. I know the next time I see her will be difficult, but I'll suck it up and just live. Cause you can't turn time back. Thanks for going thru that tornado of emotional destruction with me, what a fucked up right huh?

yeah, thanks, you did give me some nice insight. I hope I have the will power and control to not do anything like that again and just let things progress naturally with equal levels of everything from both parties. I'm sure I'll find someone that's even more compatible than she was, and despite the sheer fact that I just got dumped, I don't feel rejected and I actually feel alittle more confident than normally. As if I'm a new man. I just have one question: What does this mean "the ssssh, the bad" I must not have been paying too much attention to something. Sorry. You weren't drinking when you wrote that? must be all that metatagging. Hey did you hear anything about a new album from Cursive? I'm curious, I know this tour is for the Plea for Peace, I hope they play a lot of stuff from their old albums, I had so much fun the last show I saw them at and they played like the entire Burst and Bloom album! Oh well, I guess I'll have to get my tix soon for the upcoming shows. Plus, Q and Not U is playing near by too, they're like my second favorite band! Check them out if you haven't heard them yet, Dischord Records. Thanks again!

OOOOOOOOOOOH! Drats and double drats! Curse that wicked Rojo. She broke the streak! I was hoping for two months without journal entry but mine alone. I shall have to teach her a lesson for taking away my ego-mojo!

So guess where I went last night? Soot Bull Jeep. We both LOVED it but as you are required to order 2 main dishes at dinner (new rule?) we both stuffed ourselves silly. I love that place. You come out smelling like charcoal. I think the folks at the "alternative comedy" night my friends girlfriend was performing at thought m name was Arthur Bryant*

I think it's time for Mom's next week. Are you in? Perhaps Monday? dengue Fever are the free Monday night band at Spaceland this month. have you heard them? REALLY great

*FYI master BBQ-er in Kansas City, Mo, unofficially the best BBQ in the country. Dengue Fever

Yeah.....thre is MORE to the story about LGS.....but it does not involve Courtney.......odd huh?

I'll tell you more when we hang, eat at Mom's, have some drinks at The Prince/The Bounty. Bummer I didn't know you earlier, until Oct. I workes on Cataline and Wilshire....so we could have had after dinner drinks nightly.

4 people in a one bedroom? What? And Monday looks to be out...that's cool tho. We can try another night.....not to worry. Have a good weekend!