emily

Ok...So I lied..I'm back... I couldnt find anything to do,but get yelled at Yeah,You know that guy that cheated on me,and whatnot...I'm lame,and I took him back a while ago...NOT a good idea..Because..
It's REALLY hard to trust him...and I bet I'm getting the shaft again...and today at 7am he called bitching at me.....Because I've been turning away from him when he's trying to kiss me...Yeah because Fuck I dont want to kiss ALL THE TIME...and I wanted to sleep....So he says...if things dont change he's going to find some one else..He ALWAYS says that kind of shit...and you know what..I really dont fucking care anymore...I'm sick of everything....And if I ever say anything about him and other girls..he goes off...Like I'm not allowed to speak MY mind....But he can...You know?? What the fuck...and I know you guys are gonna tell me to get rid of him,and that I should have never have got back together w/him...and I know.but I guess I really like him,and wanted things to somehow work out...But I dont see it working out now...I cant keep hearing him say that kind of shit all the time..and I hear it alot...And I dont want a guy who does drugs...and he says that if I dont like it,then he'll find some girl who does drugs as much as he does..you know...FUCK that...I dont need a guy like that....I dont even know anymore...I've got way too much to worry about...I dont need to worry about some guy,and think.."oh shit is he cheating on me today" You know what I mean...I really like this guy alot...But I cant live like this...It's making me crazy....