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Thursday Nov 12, 2009

Nov 12, 2009
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Um.....so I canceled my account almost 2 months ago, but after receiving numerous emails saying that I had new messages in my SG inbox, I decided to attempt to log in.....wtf!? Hmmm.....confused

............

You know....I'm kinda glad that I'm still able to get on here. I'm able to look at my old posts and see how much I've grown, re-hash some old memories...

I just read my post from last year about my girl committing suicide. As painful as it is I'm glad I still have that....being able to experience those raw emotions again makes me remember how precious and beautiful she was, and how lucky I am to have love and be loved by all the wonderful folks in my little bubble. Life just wouldn't be the same without love and friendship....even if it is difficult sometimes. Hm.

I miss her, still. Even though I know her soul lives on in it's connection with that which gives us life, I miss her manifested, human form. I know it may sound weird, but I really do believe that I can sense her presence somewhere in the ether. Sometimes she sends me little messages in the form of sunlight or little birds, letting me know that she is at peace. That we are all at peace, deep down, past the bullshit that can bury us if we're not careful.

As for me I am doing pretty damn good. I am enjoying teacher training at the yoga studio, I am healthy and my little apartment is now full of life, since my boyfriend moved back in with me. (Along with his cat, my dog Pebbles, and our newest addition, Simon the wily kitten.) I'm not stripping anymore, (took some time off and got my senses back,) but I am working at the club as a bartender every other weekend, which is great. I'm not employed anywhere else at the moment but I'm always find interesting, unorthodox ways to make money. Life is so much more fun without a job, haha.

That's all for now....I guess I must have some kind of unfinished business here; a lesson to be learned, perhaps. We shall see.

Peace.
guitargeek:
It's nice to see you...
Nov 15, 2009

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