I don't know how to put into words exactly what I am feeling right now. Its a mixture of emotions all floating around delusion and misinformation.
I know quite a few things about someone else. Someone else whom I am not friends with and particularily don't like...because, well, she's wretched. But...it is extremely difficult to learn things that she thinks are true..rambling on and on in a mystified delusion. I want to scream the awful truths at her...make her realize that she is making a fool of herself.
There are certain people whom you choose not to be around...because they know just how to push all the right buttons. And that hositility towards another makes one feel guilty...because I'm not like that. I don't like to feel so angry at another person. I don't like to let what she thinks is true..when its not...affect me. I feel a great urge to "put her in her place." But that wont do anyone any good. And, it's not my place to do so. I am just an innocent bystander who knows too many personal details of her life and past relationships to know how awful she really is.
It's difficult to know both sides to a story because you know who is lying and who isn't. Who is delusional and who has a grasp in reality. Who is trying to take advantage of a situation and place rose colored glass over their previous actions.
It makes me angry. Mainly, because she is altering her own actions and those of another to paint her picture with lovely details after the fact. Details that are being painted over existing horrors.
I shouldn't let it affect me. Its not about me. But it is about someone whom I love and care greatly for. I don't like to see the people I care about be placed, unknowingly, in delusional situations when they have no way of defending themsleves.
I know quite a few things about someone else. Someone else whom I am not friends with and particularily don't like...because, well, she's wretched. But...it is extremely difficult to learn things that she thinks are true..rambling on and on in a mystified delusion. I want to scream the awful truths at her...make her realize that she is making a fool of herself.
There are certain people whom you choose not to be around...because they know just how to push all the right buttons. And that hositility towards another makes one feel guilty...because I'm not like that. I don't like to feel so angry at another person. I don't like to let what she thinks is true..when its not...affect me. I feel a great urge to "put her in her place." But that wont do anyone any good. And, it's not my place to do so. I am just an innocent bystander who knows too many personal details of her life and past relationships to know how awful she really is.
It's difficult to know both sides to a story because you know who is lying and who isn't. Who is delusional and who has a grasp in reality. Who is trying to take advantage of a situation and place rose colored glass over their previous actions.
It makes me angry. Mainly, because she is altering her own actions and those of another to paint her picture with lovely details after the fact. Details that are being painted over existing horrors.
I shouldn't let it affect me. Its not about me. But it is about someone whom I love and care greatly for. I don't like to see the people I care about be placed, unknowingly, in delusional situations when they have no way of defending themsleves.
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I can imagine you're getting pretty excited for next weekend. Being so far away from friends & family can be so difficult. I moved to Long Beach about 10 years ago for what was supposed to be a 2 year stay. I was so miserable, I only lasted for 3 months before I moved back. It takes a strong person to start over somewhere completely new. I COMMEND you!!!
So...how often do you make it back???
And you'll be back for the summer.....oooooooo......maybe, if you ever need a break from the heat, a cool off by the big lake could be arranged??? You'll have to bring your camera!