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i think i need to go abck to the docs about my heart :/ my palpatations are getting more regular again and making me feel weird....i litrally have to avoid caffine now or i pretty muchhave a heart attack, i had one at the guy im seeings house in the week that turned into a mild but horrid panic attack... :/

i was really stressed at the beginning fo the week as some of you saw, thank you for your supportive messages, its stuff i cant and dont wish to go into but its getting ok again now XD so no worries, i dont thin k it helped i havent been able to sleep for about 2 weeks! when im over tired i get very mood swingy and cry at the samllest of things hahahaha like a silly little child hahahaha

iv been seeing my friends alot latley and thats been so great! esspecially when i was feeling down, its good to go out and distract yourself and they always make me laugh soso much, one of our friends moved away when we were about 16 too and he's just moved back for good! yey! its like he never went away and none of us ever grew up, we've all gone back to acting like our childish 16 year old selves again hahaha i love it

this is me and 2 of my guy mates looking a bit........yeah.....sun stroke! its been soso hot! and im an hours walk from town! hahaha and yes i do look like a child, i get id'd alllllll the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i also meet my childhood sista from anotha mista to walk her dwag! he is so cute, almost 1 year old, he's called luca, we walked from 1pm-8pm but we stopped every so often to top up the tan and let the pup rest, he went mental near the end of the day it was so funny to watch my friend chase him all over a carpark and into town hahaha i would have helped but i was laughing to hard!



she said he was dead for days after and hes only just started to perk back up awww


this week i also had my first week at my new job waitressing in a small cafe, its really fun because i love meeting and talking to people, i now know everything there is to know about the place and how to make all the different coffees! iv only worked 3 days! but my manager is gonna leave me incharge while she goes on holiday in august! so i had to learn fast but im quite excited should be good XD

after work yesterday i hung out with my middle sister and our friend lou
we went book shopping, i got a new horror to read but i havent started it yet

i also found this realy funny book



and i finally got a slipknot shirt! iv wanted one for ages but they only ever have XXL mens!!!!!!!!! i settled for medium mens haha


then we had a vegan mexican feast!!!!!!!!!!!


earlier in the week me and both my sisters also saw the new spiderman, i feel so lucky to have now seen both batman and spider man XDXDXD
i got very hyper on popcorn XD

today iv been a busy, creative beeeeee! BUZZZZZ
this morning i had a practise for my shoots that are hopfully happening on tuesday, including a new set for you guys
does anyone else do it? maybe im weird? but the last couple times iv shot iv found it helpful to get half ready a day or 2 before and go get to know the location so i can use it to its fullest when im acctually doing the shoot
i had a play with lingire and where i wanna do my sg one.....theres 3 other set i deas i have but i cant find a good location for one and the other 2 are weather dependant, so i might have to be more patiant with thoose

this afternoon i started designing again, i havent bothered putting my clothes designs on paper for years because i cant everr afford to acctually make them, but i decided to start again because iv been very inpired recently and its just a hobbie of mine



i wont show you the drawings because they look like something a 2 year old has done, i have never been able to draw but as long as i understand what im trying to do it doesnt matter for now haha

i edited 3 pairs of shorts

1.


ripped slits up the side to compinsate for my big behind! grated the fuck outta them and added the cross

2.


sewed on an old necklace and went at the with spay pink fabric dye

3.


theese used to be jeans and i also grated the poop putta theese ones and gave them the booty slits

i also had a bit of a wardrobe clear out, i made such a mess today in my little 60's decore box room!


im going through another slight style change at the moment, im still feeling a bit more boho and natural but my thing now is funky hair bands, i think im gonna make some
today im wearing my spiky favourite one and my favourite corset top that i never get to wear beacuse im not sure how to wear it and what with??? any ideas?????



i like this hairband to but the cross my thumb is over keeps falling off


ill let you know what happens with the shoots and i hope you all had amazing weeks and weekends! iv just spent about an hour catching up on everything i missed in MR the last week! all looking beautiful as always XD
peace out my gorgous naked army!