Long time readers will already know that I am a complete douche when it comes to all things relationship. Obsessing over the uninterested or manipulative and ignoring the affection offered by those that actually are interested... In that same general swing of things, I am completely crazy about a girl who has pretty much made it clear that she wants nothing to do with me outside of business.
I had a cute Thai waitress give me her number tonight, but she's really young, so I probably won't call. (To be clear, I didn't ask for the number, nor did I say I would call.) On Friday, I'm supposed to have a drink with a lady I had done some design work for a few months back, but she's significantly older, so I'll probably keep it professional. I've been talking to a girl I was seeing for a couple of months last spring/summer, but she's too far away. In other words, I've been thinking about moving on with my life, but I can't get past this incredible girl that can barely stand me, and I keep coming up with excuses to justify the lack of interest in anyone else.
So, my question to anyone who still subscribes to my melodramatic prattling is: Do I ignore my heart, move on, and accept the advances of these other lovely, unique, and charming women in an undoubtedly fruitless attempt to simply enjoy life, or do I hold to the idea that what I had felt for months wasn't just my imagination and risk further loneliness and misery on the off chance I could have a storybook happily-ever-after with the only girl I want to be with? Or, to be a bit more direct (and crass), do I get laid or do I gamble everything for love?
OOOOOR, do I say fuckitall and run away to the distant mystical land of Portland and throw my heart at the feet of this adorable 80's apparition?
I had a cute Thai waitress give me her number tonight, but she's really young, so I probably won't call. (To be clear, I didn't ask for the number, nor did I say I would call.) On Friday, I'm supposed to have a drink with a lady I had done some design work for a few months back, but she's significantly older, so I'll probably keep it professional. I've been talking to a girl I was seeing for a couple of months last spring/summer, but she's too far away. In other words, I've been thinking about moving on with my life, but I can't get past this incredible girl that can barely stand me, and I keep coming up with excuses to justify the lack of interest in anyone else.
So, my question to anyone who still subscribes to my melodramatic prattling is: Do I ignore my heart, move on, and accept the advances of these other lovely, unique, and charming women in an undoubtedly fruitless attempt to simply enjoy life, or do I hold to the idea that what I had felt for months wasn't just my imagination and risk further loneliness and misery on the off chance I could have a storybook happily-ever-after with the only girl I want to be with? Or, to be a bit more direct (and crass), do I get laid or do I gamble everything for love?
OOOOOR, do I say fuckitall and run away to the distant mystical land of Portland and throw my heart at the feet of this adorable 80's apparition?
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maxi:
lol nice your recruiting people and using my ass as bait. that's what i like to hear!
leitha:
The deserving will show you affection. Don't fret.