Time to get deep and personal. I hope a lot of people read this, because I need some advice.
I've realized over these past two weeks, my depression has been coming back. It's not Tanner's fault at all. If anything, Tanner eases it up, but when we're apart I start to think.
I'm starting to realize I don't trust myself, again... I find things to worry about with him.
I'm afraid he does flirt behind my back. I'm really afraid that he still has feelings for his ex. I feel like he lies just to make me feel better...
I don't feel right, by telling him how I feel all the time. Which is weird for me, because I'm not used it this feeling of whatever I have with him.
I've told him about my past...With my parents and my exes. I feel like it's such a buzz kill, because I start to cry. I can't forget about the past, it's made me who I am. I need to get out of my house, ASAP. If I continue to live here, things are only going to get worse for both Tanner and for me.
So, my questions are...
Do you think I can afford an apartment with being 8,000 dollars in debt with no help?
How do I forget about what happened with the men I've been with in the past and be happy?
The biggest one, How do I be happy?
Yes, I asked that, because I seriously don't know how to be.
Much love,
Kira, <3
I've realized over these past two weeks, my depression has been coming back. It's not Tanner's fault at all. If anything, Tanner eases it up, but when we're apart I start to think.
I'm starting to realize I don't trust myself, again... I find things to worry about with him.
I'm afraid he does flirt behind my back. I'm really afraid that he still has feelings for his ex. I feel like he lies just to make me feel better...
I don't feel right, by telling him how I feel all the time. Which is weird for me, because I'm not used it this feeling of whatever I have with him.
I've told him about my past...With my parents and my exes. I feel like it's such a buzz kill, because I start to cry. I can't forget about the past, it's made me who I am. I need to get out of my house, ASAP. If I continue to live here, things are only going to get worse for both Tanner and for me.
So, my questions are...
Do you think I can afford an apartment with being 8,000 dollars in debt with no help?
How do I forget about what happened with the men I've been with in the past and be happy?
The biggest one, How do I be happy?
Yes, I asked that, because I seriously don't know how to be.
Much love,
Kira, <3
brat78:
Want some advice? Do what makes you happy, your still young and will go threw alot more in life! So learn to manage it how it best works for you and yourself only. those who want to be with will follow if not they weren't worth it. You should focus on you and your life and where you want it to go. Need more support let me know and I hope i have help at all. Have a good day and smile