Three days and getting better. I'm more sorry for her than me now. I gave her the world and she didn't want it. I have stopped trying. If she wants it back I dont think I can give it. That is a good thing! I am ready to just date. At worst I might make some more friends. I realized that I cant always think... sometimes I need to be an umfeeling monkey like most people. I'm not ok with fucking everything with a pulse but maybe I'll meet someone with something to share or something to teach me. My friends are good friends...sometimes they make me want to kill them but in the end they're only there for me. The city watershed guy is coming by manana and hopefully he will see the 400 gallons of oil soaked dirt i dug and let me sample the soil and continue construction. Immersing myself in work is good cause i'm tired and angry at someone other than myself. I refuse to compromise my goals, both self and business, just because I am heartbroken. Wow, maybe I should be a broker or something. Bottom line, you might not like what your friends say but there is a reason you are friends. New songs to come. New tattoos. Getting the locrian mode roman numerals down my left forearm. It's my favorite more to write in.
Three days and getting better. I'm more sorry for her than me now. I gave her the world and she didn't want it. I have stopped trying. If she wants it back I dont think I can give it. That is a good thing! I am ready to just date. At worst I might make some more friends. I realized that I cant always think... sometimes I need to be an umfeeling monkey like most people. I'm not ok with fucking everything with a pulse but maybe I'll meet someone with something to share or something to teach me. My friends are good friends...sometimes they make me want to kill them but in the end they're only there for me. The city watershed guy is coming by manana and hopefully he will see the 400 gallons of oil soaked dirt i dug and let me sample the soil and continue construction. Immersing myself in work is good cause i'm tired and angry at someone other than myself. I refuse to compromise my goals, both self and business, just because I am heartbroken. Wow, maybe I should be a broker or something. Bottom line, you might not like what your friends say but there is a reason you are friends. New songs to come. New tattoos. Getting the locrian mode roman numerals down my left forearm. It's my favorite more to write in.