Thank you everyone for your love and support on my last post.
I think i finally received my closure after reading a bunch of text messages from the past few months. And when it hit me I felt calm and accepting. I didn't cry myself to sleep last night. Today was our anniversary day back when we were dating.
My heart misses him. But I know one day I will see him again. All the regret I hold I know was a lesson for me to learn this life. I felt all of these feelings before he passed but they definitely became magnified after. (And if you knew me personally you would already know that would mean they were unbearable since they were already tough to begin with).
I'm going to buy a chain to put my ring on so I don't ever lose it. I'm also working on a small art project, don't know if it'll ever publically show it but a small silly comic that's somewhat based off the situation.
I'm so grateful I had you in my life Alexander. I wish I was strong enough for you. I wish I responded to your messages better. I'm sure now you know my true feelings. I'm sure you already knew since we're so much alike. Thank you for loving me.
Well I'll leave you guys with something cute. I found some old doodles me and him did of eachother years ago. And one sick drawing he did on one of the best nights we ever spent together. We were sitting on the couch drawing together and he just did this at random.
Thank you for inspiring me. I love you.