elixa

So I am still not well.... cough cough, hiss hiss....

This morning I almost left my current lover. You see communication in a very honest, very regular way is VERY important to me..... important enough that I would terminate a relationship should that feature be seriously nonfunctional. SO I used my native language... writing... and I wrote him a letter setting out before him precicely what I was thinking, feeling, how I thought things were not working and why, along with a clear statement regarding what I want, need and will tolerate. I told him that I cared and that I wanted to make this work, but that it was making me deeply nuts not to have open communication. He was amazed that I was actually willing to put an end to this over a communication issue. i dont think he has contemplated that my departure was possible... or that communication was so important to me. He was almost instantly kind, composed, open, communicative, apologetic and receptive.
I could have pissed myself.

I have so little fatih in men these days which I will admit is a tad unfair to extend to all men. Not all men are apes that have no concept of sensitivity, meaningful exchanges and a devout will. My boyfriend has proven beyond the shadow of a doubt that he is of true heart and honorable intention. And I..... am grateful.

I made 2 new friends too... their names are....
hmmm.... well, I cant really use their real names here as that would be rude...

So I will call one... "AD", self proclaimed akward and desperate. in a few notes on less than a level head he is entertaining and he makes my brain tinker a little.

The other I will call "MLV", he likes to make women moan when he massages them. But I am an honorable woman, so I will appreciate his wit and pleasant manner...... ONLY.

Other than that, HELLo all, hope you are well....
KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS


(and special KISS for AD)
(special kiss for MLV)
(special kiss for Lilith)
(special kiss for Fractal)
(special kiss for Edea)