elicit77

Well, I took another final for one of my classes and I don't think I did as good as I wanted to. I feel so terrible. I paid more attention to my other classes than I did to my MS Server class and today I paid the price for negligence. The only loser in this situation is me. I always tell myself that I'm making a better life for me, I'm paving my own road and I refuse to be just another brick in the wall. So, if I feel so passionate about leaving my mark in life then why wasn't I so passionate about this class like I should have? I think I've done a great deal so far in life, I've done things that other people told me I couldn't do and I am going to do things that people think a regular middle class shmoe can't do. However, paying such little attention to my MS Server class casts a little doubt about my commitment to myself. I refuse to let this happen again. But I won't believe my own words until I turn my own word into action. For now, I feel very very guilty for what I have done, I MUST remember, every action I take will have some kind of reaction in the future. For now, I'll reflect upon my mistake and search for a solution to my sloth so I'll be prepared next time this happens. I'm pretty glad my finals are coming to an end, Spring Break is more than welcome in the House of Paul. I'm going to Chico for a few days, to kick back in the country and listen to some reggae and gather myself back together in the mean time. Maybe I'm being a little hard on myself but I have to, I know what I want, what I want is hard to obtain, but I know I can do it. I know I can and I will.