My grandpa passed away yesterday 1:30 PM. I was supposed to go see him on Monday around 6 but I had to wait for the PG&E fucker that was supposed to check my heater. The bitch-ass did not get here until 9 in the evening and by that time visiting hours were over. I really needed to have my heater checked cuz its wired illegally, it is wired with god-damned speaker wire@!!!!! I'm extremely pissed, down right angry both at the heater and the PG&E guy.
To get rid of my anger I've been up all night since 10:00PM lifting weights. My muscles are burning but I do not feel any fatigue. My anger seems to fueling my strength, this feel wrong. I don't want to stop though. I was so mad when my grandfather passed that I did not even cry. I felt like crying but for some reason I swallowed my sadness. My aunt told me the news and she hugged me, I gave her a weak hug then walked out of the house. I couldn't look at any of my family for the rest of the night.
My grandfather was also supposed to be buried in Arlington Cemetery but my aunt, uncles and father decided that he would be bured back in the Bay Area because that is where our whole family is buried. That also made me mad because I know how important and how much a part of his life the army was to him. However, I will not go against the wishes of my aunt, uncles and father and disagree with them.
Back to weight lifting....
To get rid of my anger I've been up all night since 10:00PM lifting weights. My muscles are burning but I do not feel any fatigue. My anger seems to fueling my strength, this feel wrong. I don't want to stop though. I was so mad when my grandfather passed that I did not even cry. I felt like crying but for some reason I swallowed my sadness. My aunt told me the news and she hugged me, I gave her a weak hug then walked out of the house. I couldn't look at any of my family for the rest of the night.
My grandfather was also supposed to be buried in Arlington Cemetery but my aunt, uncles and father decided that he would be bured back in the Bay Area because that is where our whole family is buried. That also made me mad because I know how important and how much a part of his life the army was to him. However, I will not go against the wishes of my aunt, uncles and father and disagree with them.
Back to weight lifting....
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What? You mean the three hour session that today turned into is only the beginning??
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Awww. I just read the blog. I don't know you, but I'm sorry.