I'm behind on a lot of things right now, including journal updating. Hell, thanking everyone for the birthday wishes (think back, a month ago...)
But i think it's going to be ok.
I'm awash with omens lately. Good ones. The universe is saying "warmer, warmer" and I'm content with feeling around it a bit more, looking for my niche.
2005 was a year of big changes. I ended a relationship and left a home I loved. The boy is still in my life in an extremely positive and drama-free way and that makes me happy. There were good reasons i loved him. I still remember fondly the wood floors and the way the light came in the big windows through the trees. Saturday morning breakfasts together and ranting over politics. Maybe we were always best as friends.
April brought me to London to finally meet some of my oldest and dearest friends on the planet. Drinking and hugging commenced and I had a new location to love. Upon arriving home, I got the news that I had beaten the two pesky coinfections that i picked up with lyme, making my chances of a healthy life MUCH greater. I was overwhelmed and ecstatic.
June brought me to downtown, which I knew almost nothing about before deciding to make it home. Six months of wide-eyed exploration and I'm in love with it and know a lot more than most people about the city core.
June also brought me to the single life and a pledge to stay single for a year. It's been a fun ride. Lonely at times, but fun.
November brought the news that i might be done, forever done with lyme soon. I'm still chewing on that one. It's all good, of course, it just means a different life strategy is in order and I'm working on that.
All in all, I've met some of the most incredible people I could hope for this year and gotten closer with some older friends as well. I feel very rich in love these days, i feel very lucky to be where I am, and proud to have made this life myself.
So here goes 2006. i have big resolutions. Major changes that need to happen. i think I'm ready to put myself into play now, time to go hunting for my place in the world. If this sounds corny, yeah, maybe. But i mean it all.
Happy new year all. You're some of my dearest friends and a big part of the reason i was able to stay in LA three years ago. You were the first to take me in and show me a good time and you made things much easier that first year out. Much love and best wishes for the new year.
-C
But i think it's going to be ok.
I'm awash with omens lately. Good ones. The universe is saying "warmer, warmer" and I'm content with feeling around it a bit more, looking for my niche.
2005 was a year of big changes. I ended a relationship and left a home I loved. The boy is still in my life in an extremely positive and drama-free way and that makes me happy. There were good reasons i loved him. I still remember fondly the wood floors and the way the light came in the big windows through the trees. Saturday morning breakfasts together and ranting over politics. Maybe we were always best as friends.
April brought me to London to finally meet some of my oldest and dearest friends on the planet. Drinking and hugging commenced and I had a new location to love. Upon arriving home, I got the news that I had beaten the two pesky coinfections that i picked up with lyme, making my chances of a healthy life MUCH greater. I was overwhelmed and ecstatic.
June brought me to downtown, which I knew almost nothing about before deciding to make it home. Six months of wide-eyed exploration and I'm in love with it and know a lot more than most people about the city core.
June also brought me to the single life and a pledge to stay single for a year. It's been a fun ride. Lonely at times, but fun.
November brought the news that i might be done, forever done with lyme soon. I'm still chewing on that one. It's all good, of course, it just means a different life strategy is in order and I'm working on that.
All in all, I've met some of the most incredible people I could hope for this year and gotten closer with some older friends as well. I feel very rich in love these days, i feel very lucky to be where I am, and proud to have made this life myself.
So here goes 2006. i have big resolutions. Major changes that need to happen. i think I'm ready to put myself into play now, time to go hunting for my place in the world. If this sounds corny, yeah, maybe. But i mean it all.
Happy new year all. You're some of my dearest friends and a big part of the reason i was able to stay in LA three years ago. You were the first to take me in and show me a good time and you made things much easier that first year out. Much love and best wishes for the new year.
-C
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digdug:
thanks for the bday wishes!
bean:
