So, yay.. It's been forever since I've touched SG. I've been so busy (sort of), that I forgot it existed. My boy got his good computer built and running, so I spend all day on there playing games, etc.. and I haven't been in the mood to look at pretty naked girls.. (you know you're depressed when...)
We found a place in Scarborough, and we move on the 31st of July. We're half packed, and I'm having a small going away party here on the 27th.. Trying to organize this party has made me realize I have no friends.. as nice as everyone says I am, and how easily I get along with people at work/school, since I've been out of both I have managed to get six people to come.. all people I went to school with, and half of them I haven't seen in at least a year, but when they found out I was leaving the city they felt they needed to come see me... this made me depressed.
Also, talking to these people I realized that I haven't accomplished one thing I wanted to. One of my friends is putting out a CD, and joining the military where he'll also get a psychology degree.. One just got married last month, and is working on a fashion business, and just bought a house. One is having University paid for her by her father, so she's just taking bullshit classes and getting drunk...One just finished high school after having spent a year in Taiwan, and even though he was accepted into UofT he's going to go back there or South Korea to work first and has a job writing for a magazine out of Washington about his journeys...
I think it's the last one that makes me upset. Out of all my school friends, I was the writer... and now I can't seem to write anything.. and I've always wanted to go to Asia to teach, but because I got a G.E.D. due to illness making it hard to go to school, I can't get into university until I'm 21... and even if I could I can't afford it...
Which brings me to the fact that I'm not going to college now because all I could get from OSAP was $2000 even though my parents have to pay $1500/month just to keep my father healthy.. they think that because together this year they actually made enough money not to be in debt that they should send me to school.. My parents can't spare the money I need for school, unless my father gives up his meds.. It's bull shit..
Anyhow.. I think that's mostly it.. A friend and I went to the Gay Pride ball here in London a couple weekends ago. It was great.. Most fun I've had in a long time.
So, yep.. that's it.
We found a place in Scarborough, and we move on the 31st of July. We're half packed, and I'm having a small going away party here on the 27th.. Trying to organize this party has made me realize I have no friends.. as nice as everyone says I am, and how easily I get along with people at work/school, since I've been out of both I have managed to get six people to come.. all people I went to school with, and half of them I haven't seen in at least a year, but when they found out I was leaving the city they felt they needed to come see me... this made me depressed.
Also, talking to these people I realized that I haven't accomplished one thing I wanted to. One of my friends is putting out a CD, and joining the military where he'll also get a psychology degree.. One just got married last month, and is working on a fashion business, and just bought a house. One is having University paid for her by her father, so she's just taking bullshit classes and getting drunk...One just finished high school after having spent a year in Taiwan, and even though he was accepted into UofT he's going to go back there or South Korea to work first and has a job writing for a magazine out of Washington about his journeys...
I think it's the last one that makes me upset. Out of all my school friends, I was the writer... and now I can't seem to write anything.. and I've always wanted to go to Asia to teach, but because I got a G.E.D. due to illness making it hard to go to school, I can't get into university until I'm 21... and even if I could I can't afford it...
Which brings me to the fact that I'm not going to college now because all I could get from OSAP was $2000 even though my parents have to pay $1500/month just to keep my father healthy.. they think that because together this year they actually made enough money not to be in debt that they should send me to school.. My parents can't spare the money I need for school, unless my father gives up his meds.. It's bull shit..
Anyhow.. I think that's mostly it.. A friend and I went to the Gay Pride ball here in London a couple weekends ago. It was great.. Most fun I've had in a long time.
So, yep.. that's it.
i want to just get rid of them, but they have my soul, well at least till i pay it off.
and i went to some pride activities as well, didn't know there was a ball, i went downtown today and zztop was playing, those guys are old