elfhelm

weeeeeee! the next play opens tommrow and monday i'll have a much deserved day off.

As i am about to go to sleep the ever creeping negitives have for some reason have come to the surface.
Why won't this lingering depression go away? I'm just ticking the moments away to when my car completely dies . reminds me that i'm always broke. Why isn't there anyone out there for me. Is there no more happiness in the world besides short...
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ah yeah! three days off is such a wonderful thing. YAY!

all i have to say is that i suck impersonating an actor.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Went to Boone last night and had an excellent time chillin' with my girls Teresa and Kari and my bro Trever. Now after spending a day here i really want to move and live here. Welp time to hit up the town for some lunch.

Yay the set is almost done at work and it kicks ass. Some times i wonder how we build such sets with only the buget we have.

depressed. broke. bills to pay. work. guess not hard enough. Car is dying. no fun to be had. accually miss school. why did i leave. why didn't i finish. why didn't i try. worthless. bored. taking up space. not helping anyone being around. .dreams . wild ideas die. no one to hold. no one to hold me. loser. failure.

glad to report that the house is now wireless. All the strands of cat5 are gone. But my room is still a mess so i guess everything is relitiive.


[edit] me and the wireless are not getting along so grrrrr

Ah welcome to tryant Valentine Day. Give praise to the Hallmark Gestapo! A toast and a toke to the cynics of the world.

hmmm. Just for the record....mixing alcohol, Adderall, and pot in the right proportions makes for one wicked high.