I’m struggling so hardcore these days! I feel like every direction there is a different and converse tip of how to by hip. To hashtag or not, to write long form prose or quotes, to be real or curate for positivity...
And it’s all good and fun when it’s just for likes or hobby. But when it’s literally the difference between booking a good paying client or being overlooked things change.
I did the ikigai test on myself again last night because I feel like I’m spinning out of control. For those who don’t know what ikigai is, it’s a Japanese concept of finding meaning and purpose in your life.
In the absolute middle for me, my ikigai, is my photography. I absolutely LOVE it, I’m good at it, I can be paid handsomely for it, and I think especially in this immediate world having true photographers is SO important! If nothing more than photography being the study of light and how we as a species interpret it! The difference between sexy and stupid... between flattering and yuck... is light. But more importantly to me, the feeling I get when I look a my the pictures of my children... nothing could replace that! I want that for everyone! About themselves!!! I want YOU to love your own images so much that they make you feel joy to look at them!
All of that having been said, it feels like the universe is against me being a photographer. 😔 and I don’t want to be a whiny bitch who just sits here and says, “it isn’t fair!” But god damn is it hard sometimes!!!
Thanks for sitting through my rant.
