How do I keep going?? I fucking LOVE photography and photographing beautiful women. I am SO honored to empower women and help them break through the cultural walls that tell us sexuality is something to be ashamed of. But like... legit... I haven't had a paid shoot (over $30... yeah... that was an insult...) in over SIX months!!
So I reached out to one of the forums that got me started... Literotica. You know what I got?
"Why would a woman want this type of photo for herself? And if she did, wouldn't she be the stuck on herself type? I dunno. Those kinds of photos never appealed to me. And oddly enough, the few women I know who have had them done were women who hated sex!" -Jada
"He sounds a LOT like my soon to be ex husband. He has told every woman in the neighborhood they are beautiful, But Me... he also takes boudoir shots, again, not of me. He uses the collection of the nudes to show off to his buddies. PERIOD. It is unattractive, to say the Least. He is a delusional herpes spreading liar, and uses women as narcissistic supply. They are not even HUMAN to him. He took his ex to the Hollywood Bowl ONCE, and wore a disguise (as he was cheating on ME) ... She always paid for half the hotel room. But , he LOVES Women" -SweetheartBreaker
"Forgive me if I’m wrong, but it seems you’re basically interested in seeing naked MILF’s in a CMNF scenario. But I got to thinking ‘Okay, so what if I was interested in getting some boudoir photography done?’. A quick search in YELP and a couple of dozen show up; arbitrarily eliminate the ones who don’t have a brick & mortar studio, eliminate the photographers who aren’t women and eliminate those without a fair amount of reviews. I still have four potential photographers; all women with established storefronts who make their living as photographers. They do weddings, portraits, car shows, parties and, you guessed it, Boudoir Photography. It’s would cost between $500-$700, because they are professionals and will stage it appropriately. But I’m sure I could find a guy, probably a few, just like you with a digital camera and narrow interest that would do it for free. Sorry but you’re clearly going to have to keep paying for ‘models’ to indulge your fetish. The world needs more men with a fetish for keeping my linen closet organized than snapping Hootchie Mama photos. That would be a much easier sell." -Gamine
This comes the morning AFTER I show up for a shoot and end up nursing an anorexic model AWAY from OD'ing on crack, while also trying to keep her on track to get married in a couple of months. My heart is LITERALLY broken because I LOVE people so much... And for that love... I get shat on.
I'm just so close to giving up right now. I'm definitely feeling defeated. :(
A pic for fun... I don't remember if I shared this before... probably (sorry)
