A Christian Boudie Photographer?

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I don't know if I've mentioned it here, maybe I did... I don't remember. For the past year I've been getting very serious about my Seminary journey.

But as I have, I have been dealing with this internal struggle. Will I REALLY be able to pastor a church AND shoot boudoir photography? Or am I headed towards a schism where I'll have to choose sides.

It's been adding a LOT of stress and resistance to my journey. (I won't bore you with the details of my journey but I haven't always been a Christian)

I know where I stand. I know what I believe. And I can stand behind it. I can't pick sides. I don't think I should have to. But I also realized I've been hiding half of myself from both sides. Am I a hypocrite? I hate that!

Argh...

Maybe this is my first declaration of who I REALLY am, unafraid to let my true light shine. It's really empowering! Thank you for being a part of the journey for me!

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pisces:
Sorry if I wrote something wrong, I'm not that fluent in English, just know a little because I watch a lot of tv series
elegantorchid:
@pisces  your English is perfect! Thank you so much for saying so. I wholeheartedly agree about the church becoming a toxic and icky place. I think that's the real point of my dilemma. I want to pastor... Someday. But I don't want to be a part of the toxic sludge. I want to find a place where you can be loved for being you. It's the same as my photography! I love boudoir because it's an opportunity to reflect someone's inner beauty! Her sensuality and grace! God GAVE us that energy. To me, it's not shameful to celebrate it. It's more shameful to hide who you are.

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