elegantgothichum

Jesus, people really piss me off sometimes.. I mean hell I have been waiting to find the right person to have sex with for like a year & I go off & do it on a whim & end up regreting it.. Fuck I'm stupid sometimes.. I am just not the kind of person to have meanless sex at least not at my age. But I have been terribly sexually fustrated lately so.. I meet this girl on Suicide Girls & end up fucking her. She did in fact warn me ahead of time she had a boyfriend (after she gets to my house to hang-out). I have been horny as hell lately & I supposed I jumped the gun & ended up having sex with her. Apparently she really didn't have a real interest in me at all just wanted to get laid I suppose. I don't know why I expected honestly but not what happened. She kind of has blown me off now & it leaves me feeling really hollow & dirty inside. I mean yeah, I got my rocks off but at what price?? I'm not saying I would be in love with her or anything I would just like some simple compassion & mutual understanding but apparently that didn't occur. Finally she just kind of breaks it off by Instant Messenger.. NICE!! Oh well fuck, she was definaly not my type.. I mean she was young & cute but how long can that last?? Back to being alone I suppose. Nothing I can't handle. I have been conversing with a lot of girls online who seem to have some kind of interest in me. I am just hoping one of these days to find the right one who will make me happy. I guess I have to keep searching.. What was I doing with a 19 year old hippie girl anyway?? I should have seen miles ahead that would never work but damn.. I was thinking with the wrong head!! BAD ARIEL!! BAD!!