certain things I set "ground rules" for, as far as too much/weekends only/not on weekends/etc., seemingly went out the window.
This isn't like an addiction thing...I guess potentially it could be, if not for catching it, but it's something I've noticed and causes me to feel "blah".
Noticing a certain amount of "slack" given to oneself after sticking to such a routine for years...can really put a damper on your day.
Time to refocus all this time/energy on something productive. Not really in the position to make "life changes" until I've changed myself. If I'm not happy with me, how can I expect myself to know what I want? I don't think I can. That's just a theory. We'll see if it's true or not as we go?