Friday Mar 05, 2004

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Nikki gets home from Cancun tomorrow. I've missed her very much. We left on good terms, however, I was using the time apart to get my thoughts straight and figure out if moving in together is the right step. I have been quite elusive around her because of my mis-understanding of my own emotions.
I realized that my fear only lies within an image I've created. The image of not being 'single'. Not that I want people to think I'm unattached or anything like that. It's more of and idea in my head. The representation of that step and how I see it. I have realized it's unimportance.
I know that we will get along great. And if things don't work out, we can be great friends. Because that is how we started. That is a great feeling. So I believe this will be a positive step in my path towards the inner fufillment that I desire so much. I believe Nikki and I can help one another acheive our goals. And I hope we can both love each other until the time we have to go down separate paths.
We shall see friends...we shall see...
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kurtz:
i need to speak with thee on the in's and out's of being on the in and out with the one of your wishes.....
wigglefree:
Wow. Big step. How's everything else going? The store, etc? After a little experience, my feeling is that haing-ups keep you from enjoying what you have while you have it. I got really into thinking about self deception when I realized a long term relationship had ended because of my conflicted feelings about being 'single'. Instead of being honest with myself I played some kind of mental 'tom-foolery' and it came out in my behavior.

But no more about what can go wrong. Especially when so much in the world is so right. Good luck yo!


You should be getting something in the mail when I can finally get off my lazy ass.

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