Good lord, Johanna, let it GO!!!!!
Fuck, why can't I just let it go? Its been years. Over 3 years. But I'm still bitter. I just want to ask, why does he get good things when I had to do without for so long? He was living it up, going out, eating out.. I had even had to go to a food bank. I had my gas turned off. I was cooking everything in the toaster oven and I had to use a space heater in my bedroom so that me and HIS SON wouldn't freeze. How does he get into a house before me? You don't even want to know how much he owes me... THOUSANDS! But why do I care? Seriously? Why can't I just let it go? LET IT GO!
I have a lot of good things. I have a nice apartment. I have a husband who loves me who, despite being fuckig broke, says its okay that I stay home with my baby (okay, he's almost four, not quite a baby). We have a functional car... less than 2 years old. I have clothes on my back and food in my belly. No more food bank, no more sharing one washer and one dryer (both coin op) with 8 units. There's one RIGHT IN MY APARTMENT. No danger of poor wiring. Next to no sex offenders in the area. I have what I need and more. I truly appreciate what I have.
So why can't I get over it? Let it go, Johanna. Just let it go.
Remember, you haveTHIS
Fuck, why can't I just let it go? Its been years. Over 3 years. But I'm still bitter. I just want to ask, why does he get good things when I had to do without for so long? He was living it up, going out, eating out.. I had even had to go to a food bank. I had my gas turned off. I was cooking everything in the toaster oven and I had to use a space heater in my bedroom so that me and HIS SON wouldn't freeze. How does he get into a house before me? You don't even want to know how much he owes me... THOUSANDS! But why do I care? Seriously? Why can't I just let it go? LET IT GO!
I have a lot of good things. I have a nice apartment. I have a husband who loves me who, despite being fuckig broke, says its okay that I stay home with my baby (okay, he's almost four, not quite a baby). We have a functional car... less than 2 years old. I have clothes on my back and food in my belly. No more food bank, no more sharing one washer and one dryer (both coin op) with 8 units. There's one RIGHT IN MY APARTMENT. No danger of poor wiring. Next to no sex offenders in the area. I have what I need and more. I truly appreciate what I have.
So why can't I get over it? Let it go, Johanna. Just let it go.
Remember, you haveTHIS
edited cuz i'm just swift and sly...... BOOM!
[Edited on Feb 19, 2004 2:55PM]
Stay strong...
XOXO
Alx