egostang

Have you ever felt so incredibly alone? No one in the world belogns to you and you don't belong to them, not in an object way, but in a human way, no one to pour your heart out to. I have 40 numbers on my phone and none I feel comfortable crying over the phone to, none to come to my resuce. So I cry alone in my car, my only refuge, then return defeated to my apartment and cry over my computer, your computer will always want to go online when you can't get a friend to have one drink with you.

My boyfriend is in Iraq for 6 months, it's been a little over a month so far. I desire no one else but I truly need a friend and it seems none are at my disposal. No one wants to drink or go out, or even go to the Barnes and Noble when I am the one calling. They find enough time on other days to do so. I feel betrayed and very, very alone.