I was awake when i wrote this, and thinking about my life in total.
What have been the best and worst moments of that life, and can you learn from the bad without letting them linger in your mind? Can you take the good and remember them without allowing them to create regret that they are long past. I wouldn't bother listing them, and that's because they are mine, you have your own, and while we may share them from time to time, we don't announce them to everyone, because they belong to us and us alone.
What makes us worthwhile? Is it what we think of ourselves, or what others think? If it's what we think of ourselves, then wouldn't we all be worthy? If it were what others think, then wouldn't it be completely subjective? Does my knowledge of 20th century history make me worthy to those who don't care about history? Is my voice charming to someone who can't hear it? Am I worthwhile? I don't know anymore, and the answer for years was, No and Yes. I never saw my life as having a point, and others didn't understand why I felt that way. Now I'm at a point where I feel like not having a point, might just be the point, after all.
What makes us unique? There are almost 7 billion people on Earth right now. Thousands of them are on this site, most like me seem to be men. What makes any of us unique from the rest? Or the women here for that matter, how are they special, and unique from each other? A username, a profile avatar, a witty description, a hometown, a birthday, a gender, are these really what makes us different from each other? I feel like I am unique, and so do you, but why? You have dreams, and desires, and guilt, and doubt, and all the things we all have. Yet it is our nature to be individuals. Are we all the same? Am I you? Did I write this at all, or did you just imagine you read it?
We are all at a crossroads, my friends, but both paths lead to the same uncertain future, it's not about where it leads but where it takes us, and how we get there. No one can lead you in the right direction, you have to make a choice. I on the other hand have already made mine, so hurry up, it's lonely.
That is sure a long and convoluted piece of bullshit blog post isn't it?
You're so fucking cool, aren't you?
I know.
What have been the best and worst moments of that life, and can you learn from the bad without letting them linger in your mind? Can you take the good and remember them without allowing them to create regret that they are long past. I wouldn't bother listing them, and that's because they are mine, you have your own, and while we may share them from time to time, we don't announce them to everyone, because they belong to us and us alone.
What makes us worthwhile? Is it what we think of ourselves, or what others think? If it's what we think of ourselves, then wouldn't we all be worthy? If it were what others think, then wouldn't it be completely subjective? Does my knowledge of 20th century history make me worthy to those who don't care about history? Is my voice charming to someone who can't hear it? Am I worthwhile? I don't know anymore, and the answer for years was, No and Yes. I never saw my life as having a point, and others didn't understand why I felt that way. Now I'm at a point where I feel like not having a point, might just be the point, after all.
What makes us unique? There are almost 7 billion people on Earth right now. Thousands of them are on this site, most like me seem to be men. What makes any of us unique from the rest? Or the women here for that matter, how are they special, and unique from each other? A username, a profile avatar, a witty description, a hometown, a birthday, a gender, are these really what makes us different from each other? I feel like I am unique, and so do you, but why? You have dreams, and desires, and guilt, and doubt, and all the things we all have. Yet it is our nature to be individuals. Are we all the same? Am I you? Did I write this at all, or did you just imagine you read it?
We are all at a crossroads, my friends, but both paths lead to the same uncertain future, it's not about where it leads but where it takes us, and how we get there. No one can lead you in the right direction, you have to make a choice. I on the other hand have already made mine, so hurry up, it's lonely.
That is sure a long and convoluted piece of bullshit blog post isn't it?
You're so fucking cool, aren't you?
I know.
jamila:
Yes, I am.
