Monday Feb 27, 2006

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i changed the pic again. only because I like that one better.
it's my myspace picture too, haha.

recently someone from back home died, night before last actually.
I knew him. we weren't close.
But his brother, Russ and I have been hanging out since I was in 8th grade. I love that kid.
they were so close.
I don't know what to say or to do.
I can't really console someone with this kind of loss.
And I'm 864 miles from home.
I was going to call, but I'm definately sure he turned his phone off.

I went to target to pick out a card.
I read every sympathy card there, and nothing said it right.
nothing said what I wanted it to say.
grantit, I wasn't really sure of what I wanted to read when I opened the paper, over priced cards.
But I didn't want it to be so cold, and predictable.

I can't imagine what it would be like to lose my brother.
I think I would cease to exsist for a short period of time.
And I imagine Russ will do the same, because I know him.
I miss him, and I wish I could be there now more than ever.

RIP AL P, it was way too soon. <3 You'll be missed.
desmodius:
i ahve lost everyone that mattered to me in my life so far save for freinds, both sets of grand parents, my mother and father, and me and my little brother have not spoken since around 96', so we are effectively dead to each other..
plus a few freinds dead from accident and drugs...
but in truth their really isn't anything that you can do for him... he just has to deal with it and move on... the only thing you could do was be there if he felt like talking... i have always had absolutley no one around when i found out someone, so i have always been my own support system...
i am sorry for your freinds loss though... it hurts.

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