eerie4

Life sucks! And thats the absolute of it, so instinctually we just try to avoid it but if you do avoid it that just makes the time you cant even more unbearable. Yes it would be great to just search for moments of bliss spend your life on some heroin induced cloud but then when your not the pain is only equaled the bliss you felt. I would love to just fill this with insightful clichd Zen like parables (clichd term are only clich because theres some universal truth we all recognize which is a bit clich in of its self) of how we are like the wood on the fire of life to be continually started each night as the chill of reality creeps in or some beautiful words like god is in the rain and reality/truth puddles at your feet as some hardcore Zen monk said but if I may paraphrase its more like god is what you eat to sustain life and truth is what you crap out four hours later and thats the reality of it life is shit! Take a whiff and learn to love it. So why not just off your self? Why is there life? Would it not be great to just join the cosmic energies of the universe and all become one. To actually join some Jungian collective consciousness and let go of our own ego, to reach some enlightened state where a bolt of lightning would strike and vaporize the physical world of duality and suffering, yeah wouldnt that be great! Well no, that would suck too because then with out suffering thered be no joy, nothing to understand, no one to talk to, nothing to experience as youd know it all, youd be it all and that would be fucking boring right and isnt that the problem now Im freaking board! Ive had the physical body explained to me and Im board with it. Ive had the laws of the universe explained to me on both a quantum and sub-quantum levels, I get it three families of partials with three fundamental forces acting on them but Im board with it. There is no underlining singularity, no binding logic, no cosmic law of unification or if there is and Einsteins couldnt find it and String theory falls short then men much smarter than my self can keep looking as for me physics never really mattered in my day to day struggle even if the lack of understanding it is the root cause. No answer ever felt like I was getting closer, although a few did point me in the right direction.