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Okay guys, it's Christmas in June for me today! SG took me on as an official photographer. I've been crowned. In terms of my involvement with SG, this is all the way big! This is what I've been working toward for over a year.

Wow.

Last blog I was kinda bitching a bit about how I was waiting, so ... you know what I did? I sent SG an email mentioning my interest to become "official" and guess what, they did it. I wouldn't want to imply that that's all it took.. it also took a year's worth of building a relationship via troubleshooting emails back and forth, shooting shooting shooting, photo-shopping my blue balls off, and submitting, submitting, submitting..... It's kind of one of those little lessons in taking action, though--affecting your immediate life-sphere or reality, simply by acting.

I saw "What the Bleep Do We Know" yesterday, have you guys seen that? It takes a scientific approach to the study of consciousness/how humans experience reality, and ultimately, broaches the conversation of spirituality. What is GOD? I've been studying and exploring the realm of consciousness for the last couple months in depth, however, rarely from an objective/Western/concretely factual, scientific standpoint. I like my "hippie noodle" books. Call me "light sister" no... just kidding, that stuff creeps me out. But I could really appreciate "What the Bleep..." for confirming a lot of the conclusions I had already come to, experimenting with my own consciousness, in an objective, fact-for-fact sort of way. Granted, the film grossly oversimplified and washed over all the concepts they presented, but that was the only way they could effectively produce a film on such a groundbreaking subject for the general populace. So I'll give it to them. In the last couple months, the study of energy has been extremely interesting to me: how energy works, how the universe works, how I can control it. If this sounds like New-Age poppy-cock to you (so many people I mention this to scoff and roll their eyes at me, and that's there prerogative so..), disregard it if that's what you're going to do anyway. I couldn't care less either way, I'm having fun and changing my own life.

Speaking of having fun.......................

oh my

So my boyfriend and I have gotten into swinging over the last few months. I was really the one who pushed for this, but he's a dirtier little slut than I am so he was all for it. We had this guy over the other night... not really an attractive guy. Kind of blah, 40 something (although he was trying to claim 37.. uh huh) creepy, nasty old man--but then again, that's another turn on for us cuz we'z all fucked up like that. And I was blowing him and my boyfriend comes in and starts making out with me on this guys cock and then I back off for a second and all of a sudden my boyfriend's blowing this guy like a little bitch! I was really drunk and really high so I can't really remember the visual that well (damnit) but he'd never done anything like that before. I mean, I knew he was a little cock-sucking bitch because every time I talk guy-on-guy to him in bed he gets off on it.. but I thought it was more of a closet turn on for him, rather than something he'd allow himself to act on, because he's a very alpha, masculine "straight" guy. But he got this guy pretty hard and I took over, then I heard him say something to him like "it felt good though, didn't it" and the dude's dick swelled rock solid. I was like, "oh shit, this show ain't about me" but that made it even hotter............................... (yeah, sorry to give you guys the nitty gritty details, but I figured since we're all connoisseurs of soft-porn here...) so we kind of tag teamed this guy for the rest of the night. It was hot. That was the first time we'd done that with a guy, the first time I'd seen my boyfriend in the "sub" position. hehehhhhe........... oh shit!

anywhos.............. this has been a long blog. thanks for staying with me.... !!!! Merry Christmas!