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I feel like I'm begining to get to an age where... I don't really know what it is, but I don't give a shit about it all anymore (it all being expectations, rules, the real world, garnering approval). I'm suddenly unconcerned--this is a great breakthrough for me. It is an awakening of self. A coming of age and a reconciliation with all aspects of the adult world which restrained my true self up to this point.

What do I feel like doing? travelling. I desperately want to get out of the country and understand what it's like to live outside of the norms of a compulsory American state of mind.

Lately I've been becoming more interested in learning things about what I am not. Seeking these things out. I've been reading text from other languages that I am at least vaguely familiar with to broaden myself... French and Swedish this week. But it hasn't been an effort. It's been between things--this unconscious wandering online--usually a sign I should start listening to myself and dig deeper.