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Things that my friend nate would say
With that woman, you get the oppurtunity to be the king sometimes, and other times you get to be the pauper. And you give her the oppurtunity to be the queen sometimes, and other times she gets to be the pauper. And when you make love you both get to be the king and queen at the same time.
Its rare that you get to have a relationship that balances like that.
I have one right now.
Dont know how I deserve such.


But whatdo ya know?
All it takes is for me to see that the old flame is in pain, and I rush to her side to help. Not even as an ex-boyfriend. Just as a friend. She sees the purity in me then. She responds with puirity. And it becomes mistaken as a moment. As a sign that we are in love. As a question to what went wrong? Why are we not on the same team anymore? How did we let things go so bad? Well be again some day. Like two deer running down lyndale together while everyone gawks.
Things that my friend nate would say
you cant get hapiness from a happy meal.


Things my friend nate would say
shes like joan of arc. Tied to the stake, holding a match, screaming he did this to me.
Fuck a martyr.
Its a trap.
I have fallen for it before. Last summer. Everytime her autumn love made her crazy, she came to me for support. Right as I was moving on like a solo boxcar.
Stop that train. Im in pain. I wouldnt turn my back. Never did. We havent been too communicative lately. Suddenly shes risking her self-destruction threshold again. And suddenly here I am. Its a ploy. Whos to blame? I manifest it as much as she does by looking into the sun. Should turn head. Put shades over my eyes. Then when she jumps up and down screaming look at me! I can either miss it, or at least pretend not to see.


Can I blame her?
Does she manifest this on purpose?
Thats a loaded question with one in the chamber. If she is doing this as her cry for assistance I should pick the pace up on this sprint. Nothing comes for free. Not even freedom. Can you blame me?
Ooh child are my wings tired. And how would I dare to risk losing the most incredible woman I know?
Is it Fear?
Do I fear my peer?
I guess that makes sense.
Relationships have turned into declarations of war. War with an equal power was made up to be afraid of. She lives far away. But loves up close. Now i get to see what it's like to be with someone like me.
Things my friend nate would say
She knows herself, so she know how to deal with you.


She knows how to deal with me in a way
that makes me doubletake at how Ive dealt with myself for more than a decade.
Dear god, Ive been doing some things wrong.
Did you plan this as a lesson?
Can I peek at the answers?
Its been raining here in minneapolis a lot these last couple days.
God is laughing her laugh because she is proud that Im finaly catching on. Learning the words to her overplayed song. Gods not the coolest deejay. Plays the same shit over and over Until you learn all the words. Even when you dont like the lyrics. It just becomes that annoying catchy chorus that wont leave your memory.
Things my friend nate would say
Be patient.


Im not bad at getting what I want.
Im horrible at knowing what I want.
I know what I want is for the new love to be given the oppurtunity to touch the potential that I think is there. I care. With that at the forefront of my head which is full of
Things my friend nate would say
Define what victory means to you.