easter

So am I in, or am I out? I won't know for quite a while, I'm betting.

It's really hard and kind of nerve-wracking to be on a trial basis at the shop. Not only that, but the trial period can last anywhere from 2 weeks to a month... *sigh*. I know it's a necessary evil, because the artists there all have to be happy and like me and be satisfied that I can do the job, but it's still hard. And I already had that close-call... I keep thinking, omg, what if one of the guys suddenly changes his mind about me being there... then I'm screwed! Screwed, stewed (which I would be if that happened), and tattooed.

It's hard not knowing when I can start to feel truly secure. Because I really have no clue what and when will be the deciding factor, or day... Apprenticeships are so weird. I'll just do the best I can do, and work as hard as I can work, and hopefully everything will be good then. I can't control whether all the guys like me or not, but I like all of them, and usually that kind of stuff is mutual. I don't know. I think I'd be super good for the shop, and bring in a different style than the other guys. Plus I can draw basically anything, so that's always good for a tattoo artist, huh? And I learn art techniques really quickly... like I taught myself to knit and crochet and sew in a matter of a couple weeks...