easel

i ve been hating myself a lot lately........i look in the mirror and sometimes feel like ripping my face off.....i haven't been eatting much.......i lost 3 lbs in a less than a week........oh well my goal was to get myself down to 115 lbs.....not a problem......dustin is no longer mith me.......he pretty much insulted me on how much of a horrible person i am and that i need professional help.......he favors other girls over me ...and talk shit behind my back when we were dated.......the only good thing he said is that i'm a suicide girl.......i keep telling that i'm not......my set didn't make......i don't think i'm good enouthe to be an SG......i'm cute.....cute is ok but it isn't hot.......i think about giving up on SG.....it's hard to find photographers that are good.....the only photographers in columbus that i like are lil chris and alissa bruenelli......lil chris hates SG and it is really hard to get a shoot in with Alissa....she's booked til april........it doesnt matter tho...i feel i don't have what it takes to model......i'm too short......i'm chubby.....and i don't have the face to be sexy........16 year old girls are sexier and more mature than.......well according to dustin



Easel



P.S. i wish i still look like this.....yea blond and skinny