I've been feeling a bit 'off.'
I know career wise I'm doing ok, but I think i push myself too hard. I saw a guy I used to know in uni the other day, and it made me realsie how good I had it at the mo, with my film contracts, but I feell like it's never going to be enough. Maybe I'm using my career too much as a way to measure my self-worth. Trouble is, if it all fell around my ears and I had to go back to a simple little life, i think I wouldn't be able to cope, which does suiggest I'm putting too much stock in it.
Saw 'X''s film at the cinema yesterday too. Not only did I go see it, when I saw his name in the credits, my heart gave a little skip, and as upset as I was, I was proud of him. I might... get back in touch with him and see how he is.
I'm feeling a ltitle far away from LA too. I think its that the people I met there were the kind of people that 'got' me, and understood what its like to be a creative little person trying to make a career.
LIke I said, just in a funny mood. I was talking to a friend of mine who's also good friends with a fave celeb of mine, and he was giving me all the good gossip, and it made me wish i was in LA
I feel like life is happening anywhere I'm not - it's that grass is always greener thing. At least being in a big city you feel like you're at least part of things.
I'm finished with Newcastle right now.
I know career wise I'm doing ok, but I think i push myself too hard. I saw a guy I used to know in uni the other day, and it made me realsie how good I had it at the mo, with my film contracts, but I feell like it's never going to be enough. Maybe I'm using my career too much as a way to measure my self-worth. Trouble is, if it all fell around my ears and I had to go back to a simple little life, i think I wouldn't be able to cope, which does suiggest I'm putting too much stock in it.
Saw 'X''s film at the cinema yesterday too. Not only did I go see it, when I saw his name in the credits, my heart gave a little skip, and as upset as I was, I was proud of him. I might... get back in touch with him and see how he is.
I'm feeling a ltitle far away from LA too. I think its that the people I met there were the kind of people that 'got' me, and understood what its like to be a creative little person trying to make a career.
LIke I said, just in a funny mood. I was talking to a friend of mine who's also good friends with a fave celeb of mine, and he was giving me all the good gossip, and it made me wish i was in LA
I feel like life is happening anywhere I'm not - it's that grass is always greener thing. At least being in a big city you feel like you're at least part of things.
I'm finished with Newcastle right now.