I'm so worried I'm not going to be able to stay in LA. I feel at home here, and I don't want to go back to England just yet. I'm waiting for this dodgy career path i chose to finally take off. Plus I'm lonely. I've met nice people, but they're not 'friends' yet. This is the first time I've had problems making friends for years.
Just feeling a bit blue, I know I'm making an emo fuss. Also feeling quite cheap for sleeping with an ass of a person who 's avoided me since, too. He's not been nasty, just blatantly making no effort to see me, when we made plans. I don't mind one night stands usually, I'm fine with them, but this person must have realised that what I needed right now was a friend, not just sex, right? How dim must he be not to see that?
If I hadn't slept with him, would he have stuck around as a friend? God knows.
All my friends in England and Ireland have been wonderful, messaging me lots. I feel completely pathetic to feel this lonely, like it makes me feel like a failure.
I just don't know what to do with myself. Need hugs.
Just feeling a bit blue, I know I'm making an emo fuss. Also feeling quite cheap for sleeping with an ass of a person who 's avoided me since, too. He's not been nasty, just blatantly making no effort to see me, when we made plans. I don't mind one night stands usually, I'm fine with them, but this person must have realised that what I needed right now was a friend, not just sex, right? How dim must he be not to see that?
If I hadn't slept with him, would he have stuck around as a friend? God knows.
All my friends in England and Ireland have been wonderful, messaging me lots. I feel completely pathetic to feel this lonely, like it makes me feel like a failure.
I just don't know what to do with myself. Need hugs.
I had fun my first month abroad, but the second and third were the hardest of my life -- that is when the forgien-ness and the isolation really take hold of you. How much would you give for a cup of yorkshire tea, or some backed beans and tomatoes?
It gets better, promise!
I'll be in Cali from the 9th-16th with my English girlfriend. If you can make your way to San Fran I can try to show you a good time.
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