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So lets talk about my obsession and innate need for an adventure that includes magic, myths, danger, and seriously fucking awesome swordsmanship. I don't understand how it can't be possible for this stuff to be possible, or to at least have been possible. Or maybe in another world. It seems crazy, I'm sure, but I just got done reading A Wrinkle in Time and A Wind in the Door by Madeleine L'Engle and now I'm reading A Swiftly Tilting Planet by her as well, and if you've ever read this books (which I HIGHLY recommend) you'll know that they deal with other planets in other galaxies with other types of creatures, some mythical, and some I think she may have just made up of her own imagination. But a lot of the books centers are that humans are so limited and can never believe what they can't see or whats not put in front of them. And it really just makes me think and I really do believe that, as intelligent as I am (forgive me for bragging), my mind is extremely limited. I am just thankful that I still have a great imagination and my love for books and for words and fantasy and everything that entails is still, if not greater, than it was when I was a child. I hope that I NEVER lose that and I will actively try to make sure thats possible.

I just kind of believe theres more out there, and even if I never get to know the truth, I'm going to keep it in the back of my mind always. Its a nice feeling. I would give anything to go on an adventure like any of the books I read. Its all just so epic. I can't stand thinking that its all lost on this generation. I know there are a lot of people out there who still appreciate it all, but I feel like the majority could care less and the ones who do care are dwindling. I guess things like Twilight are keeping the newer generations in the fantasy world, but thats just terrible writing and its not deep at all. Theres really no meaning to it. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed them, but its really not a literary accomplishment, just a pop culture phenomenon. Although, Harry Potter is just absurdly amazing and I'm thankful that I got to live during the time it was published.

I don't really think I have a point right now, I'm just rambling. But I felt like I needed to express my love for books and fantasy because sometimes its so much that I have to say something about it. Weird, I know. But the aforementioned books are pretty awesome, and they have a message, which is pretty neat. I don't think its the same for everyone, you just take what you want, or need, from it.

Also- all this fantasy talk reminds me that I really want to get a thigh tattoo and I really want to incorporate some fantasy elements. I want this one to be colored and I want to get a ship in it, a ship like the Dawn Treader from The Chronicles of Narnia, with sails, because my dad loves to sail and he can't anymore but I've always said if I ever get enough money, I'd buy him one. But I know that even if I acquire that much money, it won't be before he dies. He used to take me when I was a kid and I loved it. He is the reason I read so much, and have always loved to. And he is the reason I believe I really can do anything I want and be good at it. I'd prefer to remember always the good in him and not the bad. The way I used to look at him when I was a kid. I hate how things are now and I'd give a good deal for it to be different, like when I was younger. Annnnyway, I also want to get a dragon because they're a pretty crucial mythical/magical/powerful part in most fantasy stories. And I want a Sword thats designed specifically for me. Since I know I'm not going to receive one thats been forged by ancient elves. Or, at least I'm pretty sure thats not going to happen. And then some other fantasy elements that I haven't figured out yet.

Also, I really need to stop caring what people think. And to just be happy for life.