dyspareunia

So the girl that gave me her number at that party hasn't contacted me since that night. When I try texting her she's too busy. Oh, get this-
I send her a text asking how she's doing, etc; then ask if she wants to come over later.
She writes back immediately, saying "I thought I made it clear that I'm a single mom, going to school, and working fulltime. I told you I'd call you, but apparently you don't respect me or what I say."
Whoa whoa WHOA! Sooooorrry!
I won't invite you over anymore, shit. All you had to say was you didn't have the time tonight, and that would have been just fine. I understand, I was just hoping maybe you'd have a couple hours after work to hang out.

But whatever, fuck her.

I don't want or need some highstrung bitch in my life anyway. I want a girl that can be chill, and know how to have a little fun. A girl that doesn't take life so seriously because honestly, it wasn't meant to be.

I had my eye on this other chick, a dyke living a few hours away from where I am, who flirts with me and tells me she dreams about me often. The only problem is she has a girlfriend and says she's in love with her.
She messes with my head, this girl. I really like her though, I don't know why. I don't know her that well. But I admire her as a person, I admire what she does and what she has set out to accomplish in life. I envy her in alot of ways. She is beautiful inside and out.
Maybe one day she'll be mine, but I won't count on it happening.

Ugh.

Chicks are complicated. I am one, and I still don't get them.