I really hate having to always give pissed/sad/mad updates all the time but it seems as though that's the only time i really wanna type anything. I've been friends with this girl Nikki for about 4-5 years and the reason we met was because there was a mutual attraction, a shit ton of drama has happened since the time we met up until now. I've had several broken hearts and friendships that were almost destroyed. The thing that's horrible about all this is that everytime something bad happens between the 2 of us it can be traced back to my dumbass every single time. When we first met i would ditch her and pretend i didn't like her because i thought i could get her whenever i was ready, well she found someone else who happened to be my best friend. The thing was that i really did like her, so not only did i feel heartbroken, i lost my best friend in all that mess. After they broke up i forgave him, and she kept telling me after they went out that she wished she would have dumped him right away and went out with me, she kept giving me hints that she had feelings for me....but i was with someone.
She's a year younger than me so when i went to NMU last year we lost touch until when i was about to come back for summer. To avoid you from getting bored of this story, more shit happened between her and ANOTHER one of my friends. To avoid more drama, i let them date even though i fucking hated him for it.
Now it comes to about now, and we're both single and we've started talking about going out on dates and what not, well i called her the other night when i was drunk and i think i might have fucked up again, i sent her an e-mail apologizing for my drunk ass but i don't know what's gonna happen. I'm going to hate myself for a long time if i fucked up once again.
She's a year younger than me so when i went to NMU last year we lost touch until when i was about to come back for summer. To avoid you from getting bored of this story, more shit happened between her and ANOTHER one of my friends. To avoid more drama, i let them date even though i fucking hated him for it.
Now it comes to about now, and we're both single and we've started talking about going out on dates and what not, well i called her the other night when i was drunk and i think i might have fucked up again, i sent her an e-mail apologizing for my drunk ass but i don't know what's gonna happen. I'm going to hate myself for a long time if i fucked up once again.
undeserving:
i've fucked up more than my fair share of friendships and relationships in recent times. it all works out though....eventually.
xposingxpinupx:
you dont know me but this seems like one of those things outta of the movies where the guy and the girl can never get their timing right and you keep hoping they get together cause they are perfect for each other. And then in the end they fall in loveand it all works out. So, hopefully this is how it works out for ya buddy. Chin up. 
