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I don't know what you're talking about, but have a *hug*.

I am indeed still around, in a kind of disembodied spectral kind of way. I occasionally disturb the website in a poltergeist-like fashion. Boo.

There are these moments in life when everything is clear and everything makes sense, and you realize you've got it all figured out. But you always forget to remember them. And then when you have one of those moments again, you think, "Mustn't forget it this time", but you always do. I think it's just a momentary delusion.

Hmmm... that's slightly chilling. You sound one killing spree short of a sociopath. I hope it's not really that extreme.

In other news, I've had you on my Friends list for awhile (and vice versa, I see), but I was just reading through some of my really old journal entries, and the comments on them. You said a few things in there way back when. Just thought I'd let you know I made the connection.

i read it all. are you manic depressive bi polar?
i have spells of mania...i have spells of depression.
you should contact me. i just might understand...

~blasfemme

dude, PIRATES. you've seen the ads for pirates for the carribean, right? so the logical analytical side of my brain says "this is a movie produced by disney using a title from an amusement park ride. it cannot possibly be good. and when was the last time anyone actually made a good pirate movie anyway? not gonna happen.

and then the monkey-brain says "FUCKING PIRATES, DOOD! DOOD! PIRATES! ON THE BIG SCREEN! WITH AAAAAAARRRRRRING AND BATTENING DOWN OF HATCHES AND CUTLASSES AND FLINTLOCK PISTOLS AND RUM AND PLANKS AND SHARKS HOLY SHIT PIRATES FUCK ARRRRGH!"

so when is it coming out?

and also, I have added you to my friends list. ha! now you have an online friend, you freak! ha!

the thing about the spurs is that they didn't play a whole game of good team offense the entire year. they never quite gelled on the offensive end. but their defense mixed with enough duncan and somebody different off the bench every night was enough. jersey looked pretty similar actually.

also, the spurs didn't play five straight minutes of good offense and defense at the same time in the playoffs till the last eight minutes of the last game.

but yeah, it is weird talking about sports here, isn't it? I almost never do it (I'm actually a much bigger cowboys and braves fan), but I had to say something, I guess.

And one more, in honor of Charlton himself:

Donate whisky!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

bananaman you are hilarious, i'm glad you wrote me.
watch out for those pirate girls, they steal your heart...every time...

thanks for the pictures props. looked at yours too. the spine was your idea? i respect visual work because i can't hardly draw a circle by myself, but i don't think i could ever Mod my Body.

imagine if someone had, like, a curvy spine and THAT was tattooed on. whoa, dude.

yeah. welcome to my world, stay awhile. i mean, you've got bath water.

[Edited on Jun 11, 2003]

You are indeed the life of the party.

Cliches do seem to hold the potential for interesting creative endevors. I remember Paul Muldoon wrote a rather good poem where he took cliches, ripped them apart, and arranged the pieces in strange ways. Presenting them visually might prove a problem; how would on show "loud as thunder," though I can certainly see how others are appealing.

Overanalysis is a problem I seem to have, too. The problem, for me, is when it deconstruct a thought to the point where it no longer holds anything of substance; I reduce it to its smallest parts and find that I can no longer see the gestalt of it. Sometimes I wonder if Ginsberg's "First thought, best thought," was more along the right track. But that never lasts. First thought is always malformed; it needs to be molded through analysis. It's the tension of how much is too much analysis that is the most troublesome.

Never caught The Ring. And I was really put off to Nada Surf after "Popular." So, yeah.

I don't think I would've accepted the punishment. At the very least, I would've wanted it changed to something where I could fight back.

i'm obsessed with cliches; it's almost dangerous, I think. it could develop into a kind of vague idee fixe someday if i'm not careful. there's a couple of poems a few entries back in my journal that contain a variety of admittedly cliche-ish bits of song lyrics by bob mould that I had stuck in my head at the time, kind of an experiment at exorcising them by recombining them in different ways.

my favorite cliche is "wherever you go, there you are." it's so much deeper than it looks. really powerful. I may write a long essay on it

I just saw the trailer for LXG. eep.

Sean Connery's one of those guys that can either be really good in the right part, or completely sink a movie. Like Chuck Heston in Planet of the Apes or Soylent Green, where the ridiculous overacting somehow works("Strawberry preserves. Goddamn."). And then Chuck in other things, where it doesn't (Chuck as Moses kinda makes me giggle).

screw segues. yes, we are all fundamentally alone, in the true and purest denotative meaning of that word. no one will ever understand and experience anything in the world exactly the way you do. not so much frustrating as soul-crushing, at least when I'm depressed, but when I'm in a good mood I have this weird combination of fatalism and joy at the complete freedom of it all.

I've never had fondue, but it sounds neat.

oh, and that quote is from adaptation, which I just saw for the first time a couple of nights ago. the one about "what you love". in the context of the rest of the movie, it's a very nice example of what you can do with a cliche (or at least something that sounds like a cliche ) if you're a skilled writer: have it be both honest and ironic at the same time and use both senses fully. so that it works at face value, but is also a kind of snide comment on the facile nature of charlie's twin brother's view of the world.

ugh. I just said "facile". gonna have to counterbalance that with a "poop".

I'm also fascinated by silly vulgarity, just so you know. and self-deprecation combined with utter pomposity.

and also monkeys.

jesus, I really shouldn't get on the computer right after a ten hour closing shift.

and also pirates.

arrrrrrr.

Did ever think relationships-all human relationships, loving, hating, and any where in between-are simply a matter of "seeing yourself in other people"? I know that has a horribly ridiculous high-school-guidence-councilers-rolling-their-nuts-off sound to it...but think about it. Like, if you really hate someone, its just because you see the things you hate about yourself in that person. Like how Hitler's mother was a jew(who also beat him with a hair brush and sexually molested him as a small child), or the classic homophobe-latent homosexual relationship. The same is true for love. If you two people really love each other now because they are in either a very simplicitic or abstract (or both) way alike, but then change as they grow older so that they no longer "mirror each other emotionally", they will stop loving each other. It does not really matter, when you think of it like that, because then the number of people you love/who love you is simply discerned by the number of people who you convince self are "good" for the same reasons you've convinced yourself that you are "good". Or at least who you could learn about yourself from. For instance, I don't know if that helps you out at all, but I out come being "good" from the expierence of reading because I now know that if I'm ever desperate for money, I could just write a really obnoxious self-help book, and make millions of dollars!!! (J/K).

Ah, so they're actually in production on League? I'd heard something about the script floating around and maybe happening; wasn't aware they'd started actually working on it. I think of all Moore's stuff that'd probably best be suited to a movie because it's fairly simple structurally; From Hell was a decent enough movie, but it was only remotely connected to the graphic novel, which was way too complex to actually turn into a two hour film. Any names I would recognize involved with League?

I read it. And I wish I was in love with a pirate girl. Where do you find those, anyway?