jeezus crispy...he was actually crying! he better not go off n kill himself.
is that harsh? i care about him, i do. but he simply cannot get over me (n believe me, i have no idea why not...i am a pain in the ass!) this last phone message, after i told him i wasn't gonna speak to him again if he raised his voice at me again was about me acting "like a grown-up n like i'm too important for him n how i complain cuz i have to work a whole 40 hours a week when he has had weeks where he has worked 160" or some shit like that. um, i don't complain about working 40 hours a week, but when he works 160 hours a week, yeah, he's a security guard n he gets to sleep in his car while he's on duty! my 40 hours a week involves me moving large pieces of lumber n 90 pound bags of cement n being inside a stuffy building in 100 degree weather. yeah, apparently that doesn't count, tho.
omigawd! this is so aggravating! now i do wanna call him to make sure he hasn't done anything stupid! how fukking selfish! he knows damned well i am gonna feel like shit now that he actually cried n maybe it's finally sinking in that it's over. i don't hate him! i still want him to be ok! but the only thing that is gonna make this all ok for him is if i tell him i want him back n that is not gonna happen!
ugh! i feel like i have an emotional one of these
is that harsh? i care about him, i do. but he simply cannot get over me (n believe me, i have no idea why not...i am a pain in the ass!) this last phone message, after i told him i wasn't gonna speak to him again if he raised his voice at me again was about me acting "like a grown-up n like i'm too important for him n how i complain cuz i have to work a whole 40 hours a week when he has had weeks where he has worked 160" or some shit like that. um, i don't complain about working 40 hours a week, but when he works 160 hours a week, yeah, he's a security guard n he gets to sleep in his car while he's on duty! my 40 hours a week involves me moving large pieces of lumber n 90 pound bags of cement n being inside a stuffy building in 100 degree weather. yeah, apparently that doesn't count, tho.
omigawd! this is so aggravating! now i do wanna call him to make sure he hasn't done anything stupid! how fukking selfish! he knows damned well i am gonna feel like shit now that he actually cried n maybe it's finally sinking in that it's over. i don't hate him! i still want him to be ok! but the only thing that is gonna make this all ok for him is if i tell him i want him back n that is not gonna happen!
ugh! i feel like i have an emotional one of these
Sorry to hear about your troubles but man, where do you work? As I just said to Tarnish, suddenly selling ultraviolent videogames to annoying youngsters doesn't seem so cool...