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oh gawd, so a month ago, i went to the dr for my annual...pap came back abnormal, so i had to go back for a colposcopy, but they only do this procedure on thursdays, then my period comes a week early cuz i'm so stressed out about having to have this procedure, so the colposcopy has to be pushed back an extra week. so i finally see the dr., as soon as she gets the microscope inme she informs me i have HPV(human paploma virus), an std, and for the past 35 years, i have been clean, no diseases of any kind ever and now i've got this and lesions and she takes 6 biopsies from inside me to check to see if they are cancerous. so for the amount of time it took for these to grow inside me...guess what...thanks youknowwho cuz i was clean last year! wel, i had to wait 2 weeks for my results, so i went in this morning for my results. "low grade lesions - NOT cancerous"(boy is he fukking lucky!!!) so yeah, his indescretions have given me the gift that keeps on giving, and i could have possibly given it to ronnie. this will go into remission n the lesions will go away if i either abstain from sex or ALWAYS use a condom for the next 6 months. i hate condoms, and honestly i almost feel like abstinance is an emotionally more acceptable choice cuz every time i see that condom come out i'm going to think of youknowwho and want to rip his head off his shoulders. don't get me wrong, i'm very happy that i don't have cancer cuz i was really fukking scared, but now that i don't it just frees me up for a whole lot of hatred.

and that fukk keeps bugging n wants to hang out! so pathetic! let's have dinner n watch a movie...dude...get over it cuz i sure as fukk am over you!!!

so that's my thursday...