couldnt tell you
Current mood: hopeful
Category: Life
lets see what to right about today well theres money nah dont have any theres power dont have any of that either what about fame nope dont know anything about that lets see how about nothing thaats right absolutely nothing and being ok with that i dont know all these expectations i have of my relationships being spiritually stimulating and growth orientated have left me in a space where i am intolerant to the mundane blah blah blah somewhat meaningless conversations built on surface bullshit heres the deal though as told to me by my friends well at least 2 of them lets call one C and the other D now C and D and urs truly were having a deep discussion and i brought up the fact that i dont nor am i willing to have surface relationships cause i dont want to spend unecessary energy when i could being using that to further another more deep relationship as it was pointed out to me could you imagine if we all walked around trying to dig up the unconcious all the time we would have no time to laugh or talk about things that bring us joy like how the packers should just sat the season out what i mean to say onmce again through the beauty of my friendship with C and D i saw that once again i was a walking hypocrit which is not a bad thing cause at least im aware of it right wrong i am what i am and im still learning balance its harder than it looks somedays but as a wise man once said i am in this world not of this world that ones for you C thought youd like it but seriously i need to lighten up i learned a lot yesterday not only from the deep diving but from hangin near the surface to feel the sun so once again through my thoughts and opening up my mouth to say how i feel i was able to gain some new info and knowledge to apply to my daily life so in retrospect all this shit i said is about nothing if you think about it really but if you really dont want to you dont have to and i think thats the point that has stuck with me some individuals like to dive some dont but theres beauty in both its my job to remind myself of that-namaste-