duv

Im in need of a life change...in many ways.

First: my job. I run a restaurant, in shout. What I actually do is as follows:

-Serve
-Manage FOH
-Run the Wine and Beer program (meaning I do all the inventory, ordering, tasting and selection of new wine and beer....Im a buyer with way more responsibility)

I get paid a salary of $795 every two weeks that is based on 35 hours a week....I work more like 50+. And my pay checks are more like 380-420 because I serve as well, meaning I am claiming tips and getting taxed like hell. Fuck!

i have been with this restaurant since we opened over 2 years ago. I came in with no experience and worked my ass off to get me into the position I am in. I have a huge amount of love, respect, and appreciation for my job, BUT its killing me!! I am so stressed out all of the time. The rest of my managerial team is lazy, and yet I am left feeling like I dont do enough! What the?

I am an artist, a designer, and creative at heart...since I stepped in as a manager over a yea ago, my sewing/art room has been collecting dust. I feel so empty inside when I am not creating. It's like I am not the same person anymore. And the worst thing is that I am starting to resent my job, which is not what I want to do.

So i have made a decision, but I have not figured out exactly how to approach it. I want to step down from management and just serve 4 nights a week. I'll even work a couple doubles and I will still maintain certain responsibilities as perhaps a "supervisor"(this way I can be paid more per hour)....but I need to take some time off and away from work. No more bringing the stress of work home with me.

In my extra time, I plan to:

1) Sew Sew Sew!!
2) Take my designs to as many boutiques as possible (I already regularly sell in 3)
3) Design a label and research purchasing some labels
4) Get my website up and running
5) Do more SG sets
6) Make and save as much money as possible...

-------------------------------------

Second: I wanna move to NY

Its my goal to save $10000 over the course of the next 6 months. I've mapped out all of my expenses vs. earnings, and it is very possible. I will just have to limit myself when it comes to spending money on things I dont necessarily need.

Wow it feels good to write about, now I just need to do something about it. I feel inspired, Thanks for listening SG

-------------------------------------------------

On another note, I made a last minute shot run to LA. I drove down tuesday morning at 4am (you have to so you can have a full day of activities, which I did) and met up with my boyfriend. He was in town from NY for some business in LA, so I tagged along to his meetings, which happened to be at The Lobster in Santa Monica right on the pier. It was a beautiful day. My girlfriends met up with me and we stayed there for about 5 hours just drinking and eating and having the best time ever. Then, sadly, he had to go back to the airport to fly out for more business. Sniff sniff. But it was so worth it to see him. Plus I was able to squeeze in time with my friends and family, only to leave at 4am again on thursday morn. Yikes!! Haha.





somebody looks a little hammered...haha....and I look like a scrub cos I am still in my driving attire


and this is my man!! god damn i am lucky!!

Well I hope everyone in SG land is doing well and happy in life. Thanks again for listening

xo

P.S. If you havent seen my set...