from the flame i return to my bed of cinder the burnning subsides but only leaves me urnning.
from chaos i do exist
all is this i do miss
all is as ever will be
all is dark a shade for hiding
so dont look up no more
up isnt there no more
for up up and left
and every silent breath
is just screaming...
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from chaos i do exist
all is this i do miss
all is as ever will be
all is dark a shade for hiding
so dont look up no more
up isnt there no more
for up up and left
and every silent breath
is just screaming...
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samanthakayne:
you were here then you disappeared again! 
got to your window for me
thrust it open to smile at the breeze.
for if i am there
blowing threw your hair.
ill be your ghastly gust
of dust in the wind
thrust it open to smile at the breeze.
for if i am there
blowing threw your hair.
ill be your ghastly gust
of dust in the wind
samanthakayne:
hey stranger!
ill write you all such a beutiful poem later
remember my words and how they taste
as we share a single smile.
your deadite ragdoll dusty
remember my words and how they taste
as we share a single smile.
your deadite ragdoll dusty
i try so hard, but it always goes un noticed. there is so many things i fix, or build, but its never enough for them, they still laugh, but i dont, i dont laugh,
because there isnt anything funn about me. i do crack jokes with my friends, and i sometimes reduce myself to pittiful servitude to please those whom take me for a joke....
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because there isnt anything funn about me. i do crack jokes with my friends, and i sometimes reduce myself to pittiful servitude to please those whom take me for a joke....
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i missed ya, tell me whats new!
i value the time you share,
so do it up and ill be back soon
i value the time you share,
so do it up and ill be back soon
samanthakayne:
<whine> but dusty... </whine> that's what you always say, and then you disappear into real life again. sheesh. 
i'm a happy camper - what's new with you?!?!?!
i'm a happy camper - what's new with you?!?!?!
feeling alittle tired today,
pissed off im lost
and i cant find my way.
something is breaking
and forcing me away.
as it all starts falling,
im so desprite to stay
instead of running blindly,
ill dig my own grave.
beneath the ruins im buried,
under their weight i will lay.
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i bleed pure blood, as pure as i bleed.
my blood was not...
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pissed off im lost
and i cant find my way.
something is breaking
and forcing me away.
as it all starts falling,
im so desprite to stay
instead of running blindly,
ill dig my own grave.
beneath the ruins im buried,
under their weight i will lay.
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i bleed pure blood, as pure as i bleed.
my blood was not...
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samanthakayne:
it's funny, dust, i like the way you write, the tone and word choice and all those good things. but it doesn't make me feel good 
vomitious:
yay for new pics! how is your dog doing? my cats have been puking all over the house. i need a maid to clean up their mess so i don't have to. wanna volunteer?
hello to you from the edge of the earth, im looking down and thinking of you, maby this isnt the way up, but, gosh, i really dont care anymore, i just got back from a trip,
lol, it was the best 300 dollars i ever spent, oh yeah, i met the most amazing girl last week, i look foward to having her around, well ill...
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lol, it was the best 300 dollars i ever spent, oh yeah, i met the most amazing girl last week, i look foward to having her around, well ill...
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samanthakayne:
you did all this for pills.... naughty boy.
and i so hear you about somebody online bein able to get past your defenses... hard core. shit, i'm walking proof of it right now...
and i don't necessarily think it's the things that make you the happiest are the things that hurt you most - but the things that you allow to get to you are more able to both hurt you and make you happy....
and i so hear you about somebody online bein able to get past your defenses... hard core. shit, i'm walking proof of it right now...
and i don't necessarily think it's the things that make you the happiest are the things that hurt you most - but the things that you allow to get to you are more able to both hurt you and make you happy....
samanthakayne:
hey, way fuckin cool new pic, dust! 
yum.
glad ya liked my writing. there are a couple of others in older journal entries. not quite so... er... pretty - but at least one of 'em is really fuckin hot, lol.
yum.
glad ya liked my writing. there are a couple of others in older journal entries. not quite so... er... pretty - but at least one of 'em is really fuckin hot, lol.
hail hail, good day i aint sayin much, but hi and bye
today i wanted to dress all in red with orange stripes, with matching hair, but i awoke a little late and didnt get around to all that
so i am all in black, its fine but the day is really is A red day,
my newest room mate threw me a party last night, i woke up with a monster hang over, i guess im...
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so i am all in black, its fine but the day is really is A red day,
my newest room mate threw me a party last night, i woke up with a monster hang over, i guess im...
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angryjezabelle:
I love that you have a good fashion sense!!!
Blessed Be!
Jez
Blessed Be!
Jez
dusty311:
today, im dressed in blue, i returned from work after 2 days abroad, i spent my time working and a jerking, also learnning... i bought a new book yesterday, i am so happy with it i might read it more than twice! i also picked up an old favorite, e.e. cummings, complete works, i really get a laugh out of some of his works, like johovha is buried and satan is dead. that is so funny, read it if you get the chance,
i appreciate your friendlness, my suicide grrr lys, its nice that you all find time for a smile or a shigh, and come to me for it all.. have a wonderful night, oh samm, im going to be wearing
my ripped up denim kick wear pants, with a levi strauss denim jacket along with a red shirt and about 20 pounds of chains, and my red and orange forearm sleeves, i call left sock-o and el sock-o, or maby my blue and grey stripped... i dont know yet, but i do know friday is a leather day! yeah, well chill and smile, and if you want to dress up, its best to start with a smile!
i appreciate your friendlness, my suicide grrr lys, its nice that you all find time for a smile or a shigh, and come to me for it all.. have a wonderful night, oh samm, im going to be wearing
my ripped up denim kick wear pants, with a levi strauss denim jacket along with a red shirt and about 20 pounds of chains, and my red and orange forearm sleeves, i call left sock-o and el sock-o, or maby my blue and grey stripped... i dont know yet, but i do know friday is a leather day! yeah, well chill and smile, and if you want to dress up, its best to start with a smile!
a mighty jollie howdy doo to all of you, the day is finnished, my toils are through, tonight i will drink, until my pain feels deminished, i only can wish it were true, but this suicide boy, will still have to see this one through, and this suicide boy, will feel this pain tomarrows
mornning too, i guess thats why we call it mornning... ive...
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shawnette:
Your entries r still so sad, mine too but I prefer to see your sad entries to be without news from u.
U're freak... I hope I'll die soon, and before you.
Keep Livin sweetie
U're freak... I hope I'll die soon, and before you.
Keep Livin sweetie
dusty311:
you all make me smile even though this face knows the anguish and frailties of truth, last night i through a fucking killer party, ive owned a house since i was 18 and this week i sold it for a fist full of loot, now im moving in with my drummer, soon things will be bright again, i cant wait till it starts to darken around the edges like rotting meat