Why is it that the heart can rule so much of our lives... Right now i would prefer to be numb and not feel anything at all rather than feel this anguish and torture that is my dismal love life. My friend sent me something that said "it is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so deeply", and i tend to agree. All i want to do is move on, but i cant. For some reason i just cannot find it in myself to let this one go that easily. Thing is, when i do go through stages of thinking that i might be able to move on, she does or says something (and im not talking frivilous things, im talking relationship moments and talk) that gives me hope and draws me back in. I feel like a puppet. Its beautifully tragic. Well i guess that is the difficulty of being a hopeless romantic. Ironically, hopeless romantics always tend to be the ones with the most hope for love.
On the flip side i have a very exiting opportunity at a new company (VERY BIG, VERY RAD COMPANY) in the coming week and so i am trying to focus on that. Meanwhile i have been doodling to try and keep my mind busy and distracted ut she is constantly there... always. Please someone give me some advice on how to get over this and move on... I am at a loss.
On a more positive note... My latest doodle was one of some old revisited characters that i came up with in college. Rufus the baboon and Cheech the angry hairless mexican chihuahua.
And last Wednesday we had our Presidential and provincial elections... So i did my democratic duty and exercised my right to vote... They mark your thumb with ink that is almost impossible to remove. Wishin better things for our beautiful country.
Peace and love.
Dust